Jun 09, 2006 17:33
Yeah Today was... not good. I'll give the rundown
All day yesterday and today I was nervous as hell to see my grade for the AP Lit essay.
Which was not good at all, IMO.
See, I guess I sorta set myself up for the fall. i mean, I dont wanna brag, but English has been pretty much my LIFE. Its the one subject Im noticed in above all others. And I love to do it. Its my future. And today, I was shaken to the core. It kinda set off my entire day.
I got a Check minus, which i guess is close to a D ish? It's not really grade wise, I spose a bit higher.
I dont know why it upset me so much. I guess because english is my life, and well, I wanted to REALLY impress her with this essay. I think that was the problem. I tried to be show offy. She doesnt like show offy.
Its weird I guess. Lots of technicalities though. but that was just easily made mistakes, I know what im doing in that area. So I guess it wasnt a total loss. But for two or so periods I felt practically worthless. Like everything that I've tried to do, has been done for nothing. Like i was a lost cause.
I need to go back to writing Basics? Yeah, I can see why. That's what I get for trying to impress. Ah wells.
So yeah, Math final is a failure. I got the grade RIGHT before that final, so I was fucked up in the head because of that. Not to mention I really dont remember the material.
So that's always fun.
I started thinking to myself though, about a lot of stuff.
There's two roads I can take at this point.
Either Excel and become a Diamond among mediocrity.
Or Become just another old rock among true writing genius.
Im going to stick with it. If i dont, I really have no future to turn to.
I've got to try... and I'll win too.
Otherwise I really AM a lost cause.
And Im going to see Jamie tonight, Hopefully ^-^
Which Is good, Because I REALLY need to.