it's been a while..
hey everybody. what's up? notta lot here just sittin at home with ashley. im so bored. and plus im really sick. i didnt go to school yesterday or today and my weekend is all screwed up because im freakin sick. it makes me so mad. i wish my mom would hurry up and get home. well everyone knows how much i love zach but now i hate him so bad. well i really dont hate him. i want to hate him but i cant because i love him so much u know? im so tired of him always spittin game and messin with my head. i mean i knew what he was doin and i still let him do that to me. he was so sweet when we went out and he actually cared about me and it messed me up so bad when he broke up with me. he didnt ever tell me why until the other night when me him brandi and kyle went out to an old deserted baseball field. he was tellin me he liked me and crap and said that the next time he talked to crista he was gonna break up with her. anyways he broke up with crista and for a couple of weeks he was tellin me he liked me and stuff and he'd come and hang out at my house and then last friday he was being such an asshole and he lied to me. he told me had to go home but instead he went to megan johnsons house. me and brandi went with my cousin jessica and we had to go by brandis house and get somethin and megan johnson lives right down the street from brandi and we went by her house and his truck was in her driveway. so brandi called him and said so zach when did megan johnsons house become home? and he was like dude i went home because i really had to be home by 10 and then my dad told me i could be out until 12. so maybe he wasnt lying about that but he hurt me so bad. but its not like it was the first time. but i knew it was gonna happen. but later that night and the next day he kept calling and asking why me and brandi were mad at him and we were like you know good and well why we are mad at you zach! and then the other day i told logan to tell zach that i was sorry for being a bitch and that i tried to keep my mom out of it and if hes still mad at me i dont blame him. and logan told him but i dont know what he said because i wasnt at school yesterday or today and i told him to tell him that on wednesday. but oh well. things like this happen i guess. i mean i love zach and all but if he started messin with me again i wouldnt let him do it again. and im starting to like someone else that i went out with before but he has a girlfriend and i doubt he likes me anymore. oh well. and dillon is talking about me and him getting back together but i dont like him like that. he asked me out the other night and i was thinking omg what do i say? and then i was like i dont know dillon im scared to go out with anyone because i dont want things to end up like things did with me and zach. and dillon has cheated on me once already and we broke up and then we got back together and then we broke up again because he lied and told me he wouldnt go back over to megan johnsons house because thats who he cheathed on me with. and heather grau. and then he went over to her house after zach brought me home and zach being a good friend called me and told me dillon was flirtin with megan johnson and he was all over her and stuff so i was just like whatever i really dont care because when zach took me home and i told zach alot of stuff about me still bein in love with him and stuff and i was like zach if you dont like me then just be my friend and dont mess with my head and he told me he wouldnt do that to me. but he did. but i need to get over it but i dont know how. well im gonna go and quit talkin about this. until next time..
<3 Hippie