wow...
so basically i haven't used this thing in a long time. and i've figured out today that working out for about 2.5 or 3 hours really helps take the pain away from missing someone so much it hurts. it really does. maybe i'll do it every day. i don't know. some of you know, i am not single. i am going out with brett l. but he went to New Mexico for the summer and left me here to rot in colorado. and i miss him like crazy. i'm about ready to hike down there just to be with him. id do anything to be with him. But what bothers me is that he is "uncomfortable" with me hanging around one of my best friends who happens to be a guy. (ryan j.) i've known ryan since the 2nd grade. does he honestly think me and him are going to hook up? Plus, I'm not like that. I wouldn't cheat on him. Ryan is like my brother. NOTHING MORE. gah. o and i asked brett why he wouldn't come up here to visit for a weekend and he was like "I have no money" and so i was like "Wasn't that the reason why you went down there? to work with your birth dad and make money?" and he was like "yeah i'm working my fat ass off so i can save money for your sweet sixteen." grr. he's already ordered me a freaking new cell phone. what more can he do? gosh. but i'm going down there to visit him in two weeks. and then one more month till he comes back. which will be a few days before my birthday. lucky me. anyways. forging. how's life? anyone...