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ok, so I have a good weekend for a change and here's how my week's been thus far...one day into it.
-I finally start to get a good nights sleep for the first time in forever
Asshole neighbor comes home at 4 am with the loudest truck ever, wakes me up.
5 am I get back to sleep, then at 6 or 7 am some asshole decides to honk his horn over and over again.
I go downstairs, yell "shut the fuck up", then go to the basement and play my guitar.
-With a night like that my meds never work well.
I was way out of it all day and the smallest things would set me off.
and it came close on several ocasions.
-The weather is crappy.
-My inner demons decide to come out and play.
-I can't get over anything, and I need to really bad if I want to get better.
-The Panthers blew a 4th quarter lead for the 5th time this year. That pissed me off.
so instead of being 11-1 which they could be if they didnt blow leads they're 6-6 and on the outside looking in for the playoffs. Just fucking great. Which means I'm gonna have so much on my mind I wont be getting any sleep yet again.
You'd think I'd get use to being plagued, but it still sucks.