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so.
my grandpa is in a coma. and i cant do anything for him.
i was sitting there watching him die in front of me. i could do nothing but hold his hand and tell him i was so sorry and that i loved him. and that ill never forgive myself for not being there for him before.
i saw him on friday the day before it all happened- he was so happy to see me.
and now ill never be the same. i cant ever forgive myself
i cant stop crying, and i dont know what to do with myself.
i am the worst grandson ever. bah.
he was like the dad i never really had, and now he is leaving me.
why did i leave this weekend. goddamn.
i am not going to ever be the same.
my grandpa is in a coma. and i cant do anything for him.
i was sitting there watching him die in front of me. i could do nothing but hold his hand and tell him i was so sorry and that i loved him. and that ill never forgive myself for not being there for him before.
i saw him on friday the day before it all happened- he was so happy to see me.
and now ill never be the same. i cant ever forgive myself
i cant stop crying, and i dont know what to do with myself.
i am the worst grandson ever. bah.
he was like the dad i never really had, and now he is leaving me.
why did i leave this weekend. goddamn.
i am not going to ever be the same.