Blindsided
He told me that he loved, he even gave me a hug.
His eyes saw right through mine.
He saw my weakness, and comforted it.
God damn, he's just a fucking child.
I'm so scared to get close.
I know that he won't be around too much longer.
They'll run away again.
And I can't lose another person.
So I have to push away, and let what happens happen.
I'm just so scared.
An innocent boy, rasied the wrong way.
He's seen more things than your average adult.
And witnessed horrific things.
But I hugged back, and patted him on the head, because I'm a coward.
Then I walked outside, got in my car, and drove away.
I've shed too many tears for her.
And I said I wouldn't do it again, but I can't stop crying.
Because I want this to work out, and I want everything to be okay.
But the catch is, I want what I can't have.
And it's killing me.
And god damn, it hurts so badly.