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6/7/05. The day Chris left for bootcamp. &Won't be back for a 2/3
months. I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to handle this. Should I
just act like nothing is wrong &go on with everything else in my
life? That can't be right because Chris is my life. He is all I have
believe it or not. I've spent everyday since Saturday pretty much,
crying. That's all I know how to do knowing he's so far away &I
can't do anything to change it. Today I came up with a good idea, I'm
going to make him 3 mix's with songs on them, one will be 'I miss you',
one will be 'I love you', &the last will be songs that remind me of
times we spent together. I'm trying to be optimistic. It REALLY isn't
working. I wrote him his first letter today cause I said I'd write one
for every day he is gone. Then I spent the next hour and a half crying.
I really am lost without him around. I know that sounds typical of any
girlfriend but me &Chris have been through so much together and it
sucks not having him close. He keeps telling me it'll be okay and I
know we'll be okay but will I be okay? If no one gets what I'm saying
it's alright. Okay well I'm gonna post some pictures along with lyrics
from the songs on the first cd.. enjoy.
I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice when I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so
And I can't wait to write you a letter
For everyday that I can't bear
You can fill these moments
With words signed forever
But you've got to swear
Don't forget to remember me
I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live, not stopping
It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you
He stopped me and said,
'Child I love you regardless
&there is nothing you could do
That would ever change this
I'm not angry. It happens.
You just can't do it again.'
There's no need to test my heart
With useless space
These wounds go on forever
There'll always be a place for you
In my heart
Pouring over photographs
I'm living in your letters
I MISS YOU♥
I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice when I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so
And I can't wait to write you a letter
For everyday that I can't bear
You can fill these moments
With words signed forever
But you've got to swear
Don't forget to remember me
I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live, not stopping
It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you
He stopped me and said,
'Child I love you regardless
&there is nothing you could do
That would ever change this
I'm not angry. It happens.
You just can't do it again.'
There's no need to test my heart
With useless space
These wounds go on forever
There'll always be a place for you
In my heart
Pouring over photographs
I'm living in your letters
I MISS YOU♥