i honestly cannot think of anything worse
caution: loooooong depressing entry
monday the 22nd, i had a fucking meltdown. on the weekend of february the 26th, i have THEEEEEEEE platinum dance show AND a dance competition in iowa for vaughan's dance academy. the platinum show is what we work for the whole year but competitions are the biggest things to vaughan's. so i have to choose. if i go to the competition and i`m not in the platinum show then i`ll prolly get kicked out of platinum because if you`re not in the show... then there is no point in being on the team. but if i stay on platinum and don`t go to the competition then alot of teachers at vaughan’s will be pissed at me and i`ll miss robert's {the new hip hop teacher} first competition plus the iowa competition is one of the most fun ones we go to. the competition this past weekend sucked so we were all really looking forward to the next one. but now i might not be going.
To me... the platinum show is more important, but the competition is what i want to do more. im in the worst situation ever. damn this fucking sucks. i think the competition would be a lot easier to miss because i can skip that and not get kicked out of anything. but it kills me that i might not be there with my senior vaughan team =(
so the main reason i had my "meltdown" was because after pointe, i told angie {the ballet/pointe teacher aka the bitchy one} that i didn`t think i was going to be able to go to the iowa competition. and she goes "okay well that`s gonna be a big problem because we decided that we weren`t gonna let people miss competitions this year" so basically she told me that if i missed the competition... she would kick me out. so i was thinking "okay......... well that sucks cuz now my only choice is to quit something". after i talked to angie about this, i still had to go to hip hop {and it was robert`s first class so i was really looking forward to it} and i knew that i was gonna get really upset but i thought i could last until after hip hop. BUT... then when we were in the studio waiting for robert to get there, erin comes over to me and she goes "so how`d it go w.angie?" and i was just like "i`ll tell you later" {trying to not think about it} but then the stupid bitch just kept talking about it and wouldn`t shut up! she was like "ooo, not so good huh?" and then i stated crying. i just got up and left and went into the dressing room {which is the room that everyone puts their dance bags and coats and stuff in} and i sat down and just started hysterically sobbing uncontrollably. omg it was fucked. i called my mom and told her to come get me so she did but before she got there vikki {the tap teacher} came in and sat down w.me. i told her everything and she told me that i had to talk to the person in charge: Mrs. Vaughan. and just then mrs. vaughan walked in so that was good cuz then my mom came too and we all talked about what would happen. mrs. vaughan said that i would not get kicked out no matter what i did. so that made everything a lot better but now i hate angie even MORE than i did before i talked to her about missing competition! ugh she`s such a bitch. she has just never liked me. anyways i`m done now i just had to get that all out.
monday the 22nd, i had a fucking meltdown. on the weekend of february the 26th, i have THEEEEEEEE platinum dance show AND a dance competition in iowa for vaughan's dance academy. the platinum show is what we work for the whole year but competitions are the biggest things to vaughan's. so i have to choose. if i go to the competition and i`m not in the platinum show then i`ll prolly get kicked out of platinum because if you`re not in the show... then there is no point in being on the team. but if i stay on platinum and don`t go to the competition then alot of teachers at vaughan’s will be pissed at me and i`ll miss robert's {the new hip hop teacher} first competition plus the iowa competition is one of the most fun ones we go to. the competition this past weekend sucked so we were all really looking forward to the next one. but now i might not be going.
To me... the platinum show is more important, but the competition is what i want to do more. im in the worst situation ever. damn this fucking sucks. i think the competition would be a lot easier to miss because i can skip that and not get kicked out of anything. but it kills me that i might not be there with my senior vaughan team =(
so the main reason i had my "meltdown" was because after pointe, i told angie {the ballet/pointe teacher aka the bitchy one} that i didn`t think i was going to be able to go to the iowa competition. and she goes "okay well that`s gonna be a big problem because we decided that we weren`t gonna let people miss competitions this year" so basically she told me that if i missed the competition... she would kick me out. so i was thinking "okay......... well that sucks cuz now my only choice is to quit something". after i talked to angie about this, i still had to go to hip hop {and it was robert`s first class so i was really looking forward to it} and i knew that i was gonna get really upset but i thought i could last until after hip hop. BUT... then when we were in the studio waiting for robert to get there, erin comes over to me and she goes "so how`d it go w.angie?" and i was just like "i`ll tell you later" {trying to not think about it} but then the stupid bitch just kept talking about it and wouldn`t shut up! she was like "ooo, not so good huh?" and then i stated crying. i just got up and left and went into the dressing room {which is the room that everyone puts their dance bags and coats and stuff in} and i sat down and just started hysterically sobbing uncontrollably. omg it was fucked. i called my mom and told her to come get me so she did but before she got there vikki {the tap teacher} came in and sat down w.me. i told her everything and she told me that i had to talk to the person in charge: Mrs. Vaughan. and just then mrs. vaughan walked in so that was good cuz then my mom came too and we all talked about what would happen. mrs. vaughan said that i would not get kicked out no matter what i did. so that made everything a lot better but now i hate angie even MORE than i did before i talked to her about missing competition! ugh she`s such a bitch. she has just never liked me. anyways i`m done now i just had to get that all out.