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im not really sure whats going on in my life at the moment.
everything is confusing, a blur.
alcohol, rumours, drugs, boys, bands, work, parents, vanity.
firstly, why must every boy i like be taken, gay, or uninterested?
i guess it might have something to do with my extreme shallowness.
every boy i like is sought after by much more attractive girls, therefore, why would they choose me?
its become rather depressing. all i want is a boyfriend who loves me for me.
secondly, my drinking & drug use has begun to affect my looks. obviously, those who know me know, i wasnt that attractive to start with. but these days im looking (& feeling terrible).
my weekends have been amamzing. some of the best ive ever had.
but, i spend all week recoving.
while im meant to be catching up with my dad, looking for a job & various other things, im instead recoving from killer hangovers & when you feel that crap, looks aren't exactly the most looked after thing.
thirdly, the rumours. gosh, my life is like the oc or something.
two people in particular whom you should never believe what they say about me are tara (aka pixie) & brittany.
they have set themselves a life goal of ruining my life by spreding rumours that range from me sleeping with their father, to me calling my best friends whores behind their back.
not to mention threatening to 'fuck me up'.
its pointless & im fucking sick of it.
on the whole. life is confusing me right now. i have my amazing times, & my crap times.
mostly all i want is a boy.
ANOTHER RANT BROUGHT TO YOU BY LUCY-MAE.
everything is confusing, a blur.
alcohol, rumours, drugs, boys, bands, work, parents, vanity.
firstly, why must every boy i like be taken, gay, or uninterested?
i guess it might have something to do with my extreme shallowness.
every boy i like is sought after by much more attractive girls, therefore, why would they choose me?
its become rather depressing. all i want is a boyfriend who loves me for me.
secondly, my drinking & drug use has begun to affect my looks. obviously, those who know me know, i wasnt that attractive to start with. but these days im looking (& feeling terrible).
my weekends have been amamzing. some of the best ive ever had.
but, i spend all week recoving.
while im meant to be catching up with my dad, looking for a job & various other things, im instead recoving from killer hangovers & when you feel that crap, looks aren't exactly the most looked after thing.
thirdly, the rumours. gosh, my life is like the oc or something.
two people in particular whom you should never believe what they say about me are tara (aka pixie) & brittany.
they have set themselves a life goal of ruining my life by spreding rumours that range from me sleeping with their father, to me calling my best friends whores behind their back.
not to mention threatening to 'fuck me up'.
its pointless & im fucking sick of it.
on the whole. life is confusing me right now. i have my amazing times, & my crap times.
mostly all i want is a boy.
ANOTHER RANT BROUGHT TO YOU BY LUCY-MAE.