I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sweep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
More than anything I want to just grab Dillan off his plane
and whisk him off to Haiti
and just lay in bed below the equator
I want the passion, I want the laziness
I want the slow, steady love
I'm more than happy I found him
I'm grateful, I found the only person who makes me feel this way
the true, unblocked happiness
I thought I needed you for that
but I never did, I always needed him
and that is a relief to know
I'm finally home
I fell in love with the feeling of coming back home after leaving for awhile
it's the greatest
I'm through with pretending my dad is the same
he chose to leave me for two years
he chose to make my mom into the monster she was
and I tried my hardest to put the pieces back together
but that's not enough
I love him but I will never be the same trusting girl with him again
he made the clearly defined choice: her over his daughter
now that I think about it
he royally screwed all my siblings
we all got picked last
and he can swear up and down he loves us best
but that's not true
he'll always pick them over us
I'm lucky to be in this family
I love all of our for lack of better word fucked-up-ness
I'm lucky and I thank whatever put me here everyday
I'm counting the hours