It's too early to think of a subject
Summer has finally begun. I can definitely say I'll appreciate having extra time on my hands that used to be spent worrying about homework and SATs and drama and squeezing in work. I can finally be able to spend some REAL time with my boyfriend, instead of seeing him and passing out immedietly after. This beautiful weather really puts me into the correct state of mind. I've found myself writing again, something I had brushed under the rug for far too long. I'm feeling much more creative and inspired lately, but that always comes with summer for me. Simply the fact that I don't have to deal with shitty people at school anymore lifts a huge burden that I'd carried for an entire semester. I've been observing some of the most cut-throat things lately, especially this year. Friends dicking eachother over like it's going out of style seems to be the trend this year, and I'm glad I've extracted myself from those situations before I let anybody hurt me. I'd say I'm a pretty lucky girl. My parents gave me a car, I'm going to be managing a restaurant, my boyfriend is a saint, and everything couldn't be better.
I'm really missing Kimmie. Although I feel like we're drifting, I really appreciate the understanding that I have with her. We have a 100% drama-free friendship that relies on a few basic principals; have fun, smoke pot, eat, and everything in between. I really felt for her when that shit went down with Aly stealing her boyfriend, not just because of that, but because it happened at a really shitty time in her life when she was feeling very alone. I'm glad that me and Bryan could be there for her and offer what we had, but I think her other friends should come out from hiding when she needs them, not rely on us to do all the work. She should be glad to have friends like us, just as we're glad to be there for her.
The joy of playing music is something I've been missing out on for far too long. It's definitely going to be a huge part of my summer, I can tell already. Me and Bryan are hoping for a show in August in Roosevelt, but maybe if we get some more material together we can have one sooner.
Sometimes I wish I could become a selfish person just for a day to see what goes on in their heads. I'd want to figure out just why they think they have some kind of god-given superiority over everyone else, and why they think they are more deserving. It makes me giggle when it's these people who cry the blues because they lose all of their friends. Take Scholander, for example. There is literally only a handful of people who can tolerate her, let alone like her, and it's because she's selfish and greedy. I've decided from now on I'm taking Bryan's advice on friends because he's been right this far. From day 1 he (and all of his friends) thought Sam was a rotten bitch and told me so, but silly me didn't listen until shit finally hit the fan, and by that I mean getting so fed up with her bullying that I took it out on her face. What goes around comes around, and I'll do it again if I get the opportunity. PS: I'm trying to get you guys a record deal for that hot ass rap you wrote me. Still working on it, no luck thus far :\
I went out to eat with Dawn and JR and it was nice to feel so at home. It's true that the friends you make early really turn out to be the genuine ones. I guess when you're younger you're much more in tune with what you're looking for in people. When I think about it, with the exception of only a few, the majority of my friends now are people that I've met before or during middle school. Speaking of old times, I got in touch with Mr. Vespe through e-mail the other day and we're going to hopefully meet up and catch up on things. I think it'll be really nice to see him again, being that he was such a big part of me and Dawn's middle school experience.
I'm really missing Kimmie. Although I feel like we're drifting, I really appreciate the understanding that I have with her. We have a 100% drama-free friendship that relies on a few basic principals; have fun, smoke pot, eat, and everything in between. I really felt for her when that shit went down with Aly stealing her boyfriend, not just because of that, but because it happened at a really shitty time in her life when she was feeling very alone. I'm glad that me and Bryan could be there for her and offer what we had, but I think her other friends should come out from hiding when she needs them, not rely on us to do all the work. She should be glad to have friends like us, just as we're glad to be there for her.
The joy of playing music is something I've been missing out on for far too long. It's definitely going to be a huge part of my summer, I can tell already. Me and Bryan are hoping for a show in August in Roosevelt, but maybe if we get some more material together we can have one sooner.
Sometimes I wish I could become a selfish person just for a day to see what goes on in their heads. I'd want to figure out just why they think they have some kind of god-given superiority over everyone else, and why they think they are more deserving. It makes me giggle when it's these people who cry the blues because they lose all of their friends. Take Scholander, for example. There is literally only a handful of people who can tolerate her, let alone like her, and it's because she's selfish and greedy. I've decided from now on I'm taking Bryan's advice on friends because he's been right this far. From day 1 he (and all of his friends) thought Sam was a rotten bitch and told me so, but silly me didn't listen until shit finally hit the fan, and by that I mean getting so fed up with her bullying that I took it out on her face. What goes around comes around, and I'll do it again if I get the opportunity. PS: I'm trying to get you guys a record deal for that hot ass rap you wrote me. Still working on it, no luck thus far :\
I went out to eat with Dawn and JR and it was nice to feel so at home. It's true that the friends you make early really turn out to be the genuine ones. I guess when you're younger you're much more in tune with what you're looking for in people. When I think about it, with the exception of only a few, the majority of my friends now are people that I've met before or during middle school. Speaking of old times, I got in touch with Mr. Vespe through e-mail the other day and we're going to hopefully meet up and catch up on things. I think it'll be really nice to see him again, being that he was such a big part of me and Dawn's middle school experience.