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So I'm not really sure what to do right now.
It's just for some reason, in the past few days, I've realized that I've been lying to myself about this place, and that I hate it here.
My grades are sucking, because I lost my motivation to do well.
I hate 90% of the people here, because they have a striking resemblance to 90% of the population of EHHS.
The weekends here SUCK to say the least, and there's not a good party unless you know someone who knows someone whos having one.
I'm in fucking WILLIMANTIC for Goodness sakes.
This school does not fit my personality. At all. I'm just sorry (both money wise, and credit wise) that I didn't come to this conclusion sooner.
I think I just thought I'd be happy here because everyone else thought I'd be happy here.
WRONG.
I need somewhere where there's constant life moving fast paced around me.
I need somewhere where there's ALWAYS something going on.
I need somewhere where I can get a real taste for the world that's out there.
I need somewhere that's a little crazy at times, like me.
So needless to say, this girl, for the first time in her life, is QUITTING at something.
Shocking. I know.
But fuck that, it's not quitting.
People have done shit like this all the time.
I know my parents are surprised, but this is the first time in a long time, that I feel like I'm doing something FOR ME.
I need to live my life, no matter how un-mapped out it might seem to others.
I need to take a look around, and find a place that screams "DOAK COME HERE"
So come the end of this week, I'll be an EH resident again, figuring out what I really want to do.
And I don't think there's a damn thing wrong with that.
It's just for some reason, in the past few days, I've realized that I've been lying to myself about this place, and that I hate it here.
My grades are sucking, because I lost my motivation to do well.
I hate 90% of the people here, because they have a striking resemblance to 90% of the population of EHHS.
The weekends here SUCK to say the least, and there's not a good party unless you know someone who knows someone whos having one.
I'm in fucking WILLIMANTIC for Goodness sakes.
This school does not fit my personality. At all. I'm just sorry (both money wise, and credit wise) that I didn't come to this conclusion sooner.
I think I just thought I'd be happy here because everyone else thought I'd be happy here.
WRONG.
I need somewhere where there's constant life moving fast paced around me.
I need somewhere where there's ALWAYS something going on.
I need somewhere where I can get a real taste for the world that's out there.
I need somewhere that's a little crazy at times, like me.
So needless to say, this girl, for the first time in her life, is QUITTING at something.
Shocking. I know.
But fuck that, it's not quitting.
People have done shit like this all the time.
I know my parents are surprised, but this is the first time in a long time, that I feel like I'm doing something FOR ME.
I need to live my life, no matter how un-mapped out it might seem to others.
I need to take a look around, and find a place that screams "DOAK COME HERE"
So come the end of this week, I'll be an EH resident again, figuring out what I really want to do.
And I don't think there's a damn thing wrong with that.