But peter pan is miles away..
It's amazing what me and my sister were just arguing about. I say one little thing and she jumps on my case saying oh you only like that or you only believe in that because everyone else does or you want to sound cool or you just like the sound of it. WTF. Thats NOT who I am. This really fucking hit me hard because it just goes to show how much she really doesnt understand or really know me. She is always trying to bring me down or think negative when it comes to me. It really hurt me to think that she would think I'm the type of person who does or like things just because of other people. Is it really that hard to grasp that I really have strong feelings when it comes to certain things? Just because I've never talked about them or mentioned them doesn't mean those feelings were never there. Maybe I'm just starting to be more open about things I have strong interest or passion in. I'm not one to really talk about my feelings but when I finally do she tries to jump down my throat or shoot me down.
Then she started getting on my case about caring for my friends so much. I really have nothing to say about that. What is there to argue about loving your friends and always being there to back them up? Isn't that what friends are for? She also seems to think that I love my friends more than I do my family. Uh, thats a lie. I'm sorry I don't express my love for my family all the time. I'm sorry I'm not so damn lovey dovey. Thats just not who I am. but just because I don't show it doesn't mean the love isnt there. My parents know how much I love them. I've even made sure they knew because it would seriously kill me if they thought otherwise. I hope my sister knows I love her, even though she can be a real bitch.
It also shocked me that she would say its a free country I can have any opinion I want about you. Then when I say okay so its a free country, I can do what I want. Age doesnt matter to me. Then shes like uhh no because you act older than you are. WTH. I am who I am. I'm sorry if I don't act my age.. thats just who I am. I've matured and grown a lot. In about a year I will be a fucking adult. I think i'm pretty damn fine for my age. I'm sorry I don't act my age according to the way society thinks I should act. I'm better than that.
Whatevs.
I feel better now.
Then she started getting on my case about caring for my friends so much. I really have nothing to say about that. What is there to argue about loving your friends and always being there to back them up? Isn't that what friends are for? She also seems to think that I love my friends more than I do my family. Uh, thats a lie. I'm sorry I don't express my love for my family all the time. I'm sorry I'm not so damn lovey dovey. Thats just not who I am. but just because I don't show it doesn't mean the love isnt there. My parents know how much I love them. I've even made sure they knew because it would seriously kill me if they thought otherwise. I hope my sister knows I love her, even though she can be a real bitch.
It also shocked me that she would say its a free country I can have any opinion I want about you. Then when I say okay so its a free country, I can do what I want. Age doesnt matter to me. Then shes like uhh no because you act older than you are. WTH. I am who I am. I'm sorry if I don't act my age.. thats just who I am. I've matured and grown a lot. In about a year I will be a fucking adult. I think i'm pretty damn fine for my age. I'm sorry I don't act my age according to the way society thinks I should act. I'm better than that.
Whatevs.
I feel better now.