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wow...just soo much going on this year!
i can't really believe that im graduating in 1 week, its kind of scary. Well, ive just been going through alot whether its parents, grades, friends, or worries. My parents don't really care anymore if i graduate or not, my grades suck which im trying my super hardest to bring up. I feel like im being ditched because everyone is trying to find a comfort zone for highschool and everyone is goin off to Nade while im going to ND. I also just feel like im not wanted anymore. I don't know if its karma from the past years or weeks or something but thats what i guess its got to be. I hate having the feeling of leaving everyone but ND is like my life.Im just worried that by the end of this week im gonna be standin alone in the middle of the campus. All i hope is that someone even if its the most random person will just tell me that its ok and will actually be there for me in these last weeks of 8th grade. Teachers are pressuing me to get my grades up but the ironic part is that they aren't giving anymore assignments or quizzes. There was only one day last week that made my day but also almost practically made me cry. Fun day was fun because of having everyone sign my yearbook and hanging with people.I love seeing all the messages that people write, even if it is your worst enemy. It kind of gives you a chance to let go of your feelings and to become friends with even the people that you have never liked but finally gotten to know. It was sad though because i sat on the bleachers and looked at everyone dancing and hanging out in the middle of the gym and i was like, wow im actually gonna be leaving all these people. I can't help but think that this is the reality of life. I don't even know if im ready to leave Chaminade. I totally act like it is the worst place on earth, but really its kind of the best other than the academics. All of my friends that i have met this year were great even if we disliked eachother in the beginning.
Well, i just hope everyone has a great summer and im gonna miss all of you guys and i hope to keep in touch. I just want everyone to know that i am here and of course i won't forget you in highschool! I know this is a little early but i just had to get all my feelings out cause i couldn't handle it anymore.
peaceout.