Time Slows Down When You Look At Me...

[___toxicseasons]

I walked into the cafeteria this morning.
And Jayme ran up to me crying his eyes out.
Shocked me for a moment,
Because Jayme and I don't really conversate much.

Kelly Hill died.
Got in a car accident.
I knew of her.
And what I did know of her...
She was really nice.

So everyone moped around school all day.
Jayme wouldn't let go of my arm.
He was hysterical.
I felt so bad.

And this all makes me think so much.
About life itself.
How much of it we take for granted.
You never know when your time is going to come.
Makes me want to embrace every second of life...
And live in the moment.
Just be happy and live as if today were your last.

May her soul rest in peace.

I feel like screaming out loud.
Anything at all.
I just want to scream.
Because I just have such overwhelming feelings...
That aren't acknowledged.
It's as if everyone else is just feeding it into me.
Feeding me this confusion.

Today's been too overwhelming.
I let everyone cry on my shoulder.
I think it may be my turn.

So attorney dude called.
They've postponed it until APRIL!
::Dies::

Cliff's in jail without bond.
Possession of cocaine.
Atleast I'm safe for now.
Won't be leaving anytime soon.

Well...
I'm sick of this negative mindset I've got.
I need to just...
Clear my head.
Need to start over.
Need to appoligize.
Because everything is my fault.

So here's my appoligies, World.
I'm sorry.