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wow. just wow. I'm so stressed. about everything.
nothing is going okay right now. it's all falling apart. me and Adam are still together. but I'm so stressed.
it's not his fault. but I don't know. he took out his frustration on me. and it really, really hurt. I broke down and started crying at drama practice.
drama comps are this weekend. and I'm freaking out. no one's going for me. like always. it's in Skowhegan, so it's too far away =\ Adam can't go. Mike can't go. basically no one here can go.
my self portrait's gonna be up at the mall. in case anyone cares.
my surgery's the 24th, not at a hospital though. so that's good. I'm still really worried about it. Adam's not helping much either... when I thought it was at a hospital, I was getting really worked up about it and he was just like "I don't know why you're so upset by this.. you're gonna be unconcious for half of it anyway." thanks, sweetie, that makes me feel SO much better now!
god. I just don't know. I want this month to be over with.
no more drama. surgery all done. I want the 20 days to be over with. I want him to tell his parents. I want them to be OKAY with it and not kill him. I want it to be SEPTEMBER.
that's like, the one thing he can say to me and make almost everything all better.. "college" or "September" either one.. when we can MOVE OUT. be together whenever we want. fall asleep in each other's arms. total happiness.
nothing is going okay right now. it's all falling apart. me and Adam are still together. but I'm so stressed.
it's not his fault. but I don't know. he took out his frustration on me. and it really, really hurt. I broke down and started crying at drama practice.
drama comps are this weekend. and I'm freaking out. no one's going for me. like always. it's in Skowhegan, so it's too far away =\ Adam can't go. Mike can't go. basically no one here can go.
my self portrait's gonna be up at the mall. in case anyone cares.
my surgery's the 24th, not at a hospital though. so that's good. I'm still really worried about it. Adam's not helping much either... when I thought it was at a hospital, I was getting really worked up about it and he was just like "I don't know why you're so upset by this.. you're gonna be unconcious for half of it anyway." thanks, sweetie, that makes me feel SO much better now!
god. I just don't know. I want this month to be over with.
no more drama. surgery all done. I want the 20 days to be over with. I want him to tell his parents. I want them to be OKAY with it and not kill him. I want it to be SEPTEMBER.
that's like, the one thing he can say to me and make almost everything all better.. "college" or "September" either one.. when we can MOVE OUT. be together whenever we want. fall asleep in each other's arms. total happiness.