you cant love too much one part of it
I didnt get rehired for RA next year.
I would still be balling my eyes out, but i have been doing so since 430 when i read my letter and think im all out of tears. I am a loser for loving my job so much, i know, but im not even going to try to defend that. It sucks so bad to love something so bad and KNOW you are good at it and you lose it. Im not one to talk highly about myself ever, but it absolutely blows my mind that I have been doing this job for 2 years now and not once was I ever told I need to change the way I do something. ResLife is making a lot of changes for next year, but I cannot wrap my head around the fact that they only hired 1 out of 4 of the potential 3rd years. And with 3 new RDs next year? I would love to see them work this out.
I have been grouped in the same category as RAs who have broken every rule under the sun. RAs that never hand in their paperwork, RAs that leave campus for hours at a time while on suty with the emergency phone- acually, some of these people got rehired! over me!
I guess the indescribable connections and relationships I have built with residents has meant nothing to ResLife. last time I checked, it was ALL about the students. and I love working with first year students. I dont know many other people who would say that. I dont know many other people who want to work with first year students as their full- time profession after graduate school. I dont know many other RAs that have walked on this campus that have had the passion for this job that I have.
It just makes no sense. and I know this will bring good things for next year, but i am not at the point where i can accept that yet. I am allowed to be sad right now, and I wont hold it back. but soon the sadness is going to fade, and the anger will still be there. and i cant wait to hear every single persons response as to why I didn not get rehired. because I deserve an explaination at the very least.
I would still be balling my eyes out, but i have been doing so since 430 when i read my letter and think im all out of tears. I am a loser for loving my job so much, i know, but im not even going to try to defend that. It sucks so bad to love something so bad and KNOW you are good at it and you lose it. Im not one to talk highly about myself ever, but it absolutely blows my mind that I have been doing this job for 2 years now and not once was I ever told I need to change the way I do something. ResLife is making a lot of changes for next year, but I cannot wrap my head around the fact that they only hired 1 out of 4 of the potential 3rd years. And with 3 new RDs next year? I would love to see them work this out.
I have been grouped in the same category as RAs who have broken every rule under the sun. RAs that never hand in their paperwork, RAs that leave campus for hours at a time while on suty with the emergency phone- acually, some of these people got rehired! over me!
I guess the indescribable connections and relationships I have built with residents has meant nothing to ResLife. last time I checked, it was ALL about the students. and I love working with first year students. I dont know many other people who would say that. I dont know many other people who want to work with first year students as their full- time profession after graduate school. I dont know many other RAs that have walked on this campus that have had the passion for this job that I have.
It just makes no sense. and I know this will bring good things for next year, but i am not at the point where i can accept that yet. I am allowed to be sad right now, and I wont hold it back. but soon the sadness is going to fade, and the anger will still be there. and i cant wait to hear every single persons response as to why I didn not get rehired. because I deserve an explaination at the very least.