homecoming

[___tinkerpunk]

so..brad is at homecoming with dara...and i've been thinking about it all night. i hate thinking about it too like i want to shoot myself if the ear right now just to stop thinking about them because i know he's happy..its like there's this part of me that misses him so much and still loves him to death but then the other part is just saying "he's happy now..you're only job was to make him happy, and you did it whether you accomplished it by showing him how good everything else is compared to me or actually did make him happy" i hate it because i remember when we were together, and i started talking to steve hatcher, and brad got so scared that i was going to leave/cheat on him or something and after we split up he saw me hugging him and it pissed him off so much to think that his ex girlfriend was 'lowering herself to his standards' or something and he starting imagining us being together and he got so so scared and i felt awful that he was scared but it made me realize how much he cared about me ya know? but know i know exactly how he felt because i've been imagining him kissing her and doing all the stuff he used to do for me all night so if he went with her simply to drive me nuts (which i *know* he didn't) then he accomplished it...but..that's just me being *jealous* again...i'll be fine in the morning

i'm ***so so so*** sorry....

oh yea..and i went to starbucks with andy..it was kinda boring...