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ok that's it. i'm done playing these games. i'm no longer starring out people's names when i talk about them, this is a JOURNAL, whe'er it be online or not, and i can tlak about whoever and whatever i like without it being "behind their back" if you want to know, come read it. i will type as it comes into my head, so it may not make much sense the first time you read it.
i'm tired of tiptoeing around brad and amber and matt about what i say and do. jon has a right to know what's been going on since he left, and i promised him i'd tell him. nothing i am about to say is a rumor or assumption. everything i have seen and heard are from the people specifically with my own eyes and ears. brad and amber kiss eachother regularly. as in every day. i don't know if they did it when we were together, and i don't care anymore. i also don't know if she encouraged him to break up with me, though my gut instinct tells me she did. but i don't know. they and matt have stayed over at matt's house alone. amber has said that she "made a mistake" 2 years ago. (i really wish i hadn't deleted all that stuff i wrote just because it pissed brad off. that was totally gay of me). amber cried and threw a fit the last time brad and i went out somewhere without her. he and i have been out a grande total of TWO times since jon left because of that. she believes every hint of a rumor she hears about me and uses it to turn all of our mutual friends against me. there will be al ot of fighting and broken hearts when jon gets back. i don't want to spark it (though i know of atl east 3 other people who will anyway) but i PROMISED him as his little sister. i cannot break that promise. whatever happens happens for a reason, good and bad. if someone leaves your life it's only to make room for someone new. if someone breaks your heart, its only because you weren't as strong as you should be, and you will be when you heal. tough times don't last, tough people do. and i do the things i do "'cause i can".
oh. and brad and watt are probably going to get together. wow. *ahem* and people said *we* were perfect for eachother!
and matt and amanda got together..finally. lol
drill sucked today. it's pretty sad when people yell at others about dedication but then don't even show up. hm.
i'm tired of tiptoeing around brad and amber and matt about what i say and do. jon has a right to know what's been going on since he left, and i promised him i'd tell him. nothing i am about to say is a rumor or assumption. everything i have seen and heard are from the people specifically with my own eyes and ears. brad and amber kiss eachother regularly. as in every day. i don't know if they did it when we were together, and i don't care anymore. i also don't know if she encouraged him to break up with me, though my gut instinct tells me she did. but i don't know. they and matt have stayed over at matt's house alone. amber has said that she "made a mistake" 2 years ago. (i really wish i hadn't deleted all that stuff i wrote just because it pissed brad off. that was totally gay of me). amber cried and threw a fit the last time brad and i went out somewhere without her. he and i have been out a grande total of TWO times since jon left because of that. she believes every hint of a rumor she hears about me and uses it to turn all of our mutual friends against me. there will be al ot of fighting and broken hearts when jon gets back. i don't want to spark it (though i know of atl east 3 other people who will anyway) but i PROMISED him as his little sister. i cannot break that promise. whatever happens happens for a reason, good and bad. if someone leaves your life it's only to make room for someone new. if someone breaks your heart, its only because you weren't as strong as you should be, and you will be when you heal. tough times don't last, tough people do. and i do the things i do "'cause i can".
oh. and brad and watt are probably going to get together. wow. *ahem* and people said *we* were perfect for eachother!
and matt and amanda got together..finally. lol
drill sucked today. it's pretty sad when people yell at others about dedication but then don't even show up. hm.