living hiiiigh on yesterday's lies
I feel like if I don't get this all out now I'll actually explode. I feel like I have so many emotions running through my body all at once. I feel like the highs and the lows are so extreme and I'm not really sure how to deal with that... not that it's neccessarily a bad thing, just unfamiliar. Everything's happening at once and I just wish I could stop time. That's actually exactly what I wish I could do. I wish that I could just put everything on pause and catch up.
It's January 27th of my senior year. Are we serious?! This is so ridiculous. I know where I'm going to college already. I know where I'm going to live for the next four years of my life. I'm going to leave all of this and be thrown into something all new. I can't decide if that's really what I want to happen though. Part of me wants to stay here with all of these people and never leave and part of me just cannot wait until the first day of classes at Plymouth State University (wow, it still doesn't really feel real...) I know that come the second week or so in August I'm going to grow nostalgic and never want to leave all of these amazing people, but I'm smart enough to know that it's something that I have to do and that I'm just going to meet more great people and have more great experiences. I think that maybe this is how everyone's feeling... maybe? I don't really know.
The other stuff is too hard to talk about; too hard to articulate and even to hard for myself to understand so maybe I'll save all that for another day when I have a better handle on things. We shall see what we shall see. (<--- Pave-ism :])
Would it take a bakers dozen
to get my point to you?
Would it take a half a pound
to roll a joint for you
Would it take some hailing mary's
so full of grace to get my sound to you
Will you help me break it
down and get on through
It's January 27th of my senior year. Are we serious?! This is so ridiculous. I know where I'm going to college already. I know where I'm going to live for the next four years of my life. I'm going to leave all of this and be thrown into something all new. I can't decide if that's really what I want to happen though. Part of me wants to stay here with all of these people and never leave and part of me just cannot wait until the first day of classes at Plymouth State University (wow, it still doesn't really feel real...) I know that come the second week or so in August I'm going to grow nostalgic and never want to leave all of these amazing people, but I'm smart enough to know that it's something that I have to do and that I'm just going to meet more great people and have more great experiences. I think that maybe this is how everyone's feeling... maybe? I don't really know.
The other stuff is too hard to talk about; too hard to articulate and even to hard for myself to understand so maybe I'll save all that for another day when I have a better handle on things. We shall see what we shall see. (<--- Pave-ism :])
Would it take a bakers dozen
to get my point to you?
Would it take a half a pound
to roll a joint for you
Would it take some hailing mary's
so full of grace to get my sound to you
Will you help me break it
down and get on through