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I'm so confused and lost. I hide it most of the time but when I'm alone it's always there. I used to be so content.
I dreamt my dad was alive and he took me shopping and then to the beach but he still had cancer, but we were just hanging out and talking and having a nice time but he looked really sick, and at the beach i told him how it was exactly a month until my 20th birthday and he started crying saying he wishes he could be there but he can't be there because he won't make it, and we just hugged for a really long time. raaaaaaaagggggggggggggggiodsjgs.
I got myself into such a mess. I wish I could get everything back together.
I dreamt my dad was alive and he took me shopping and then to the beach but he still had cancer, but we were just hanging out and talking and having a nice time but he looked really sick, and at the beach i told him how it was exactly a month until my 20th birthday and he started crying saying he wishes he could be there but he can't be there because he won't make it, and we just hugged for a really long time. raaaaaaaagggggggggggggggiodsjgs.
I got myself into such a mess. I wish I could get everything back together.