i did the breaking

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its a long journal uphill and i can't believe that i found the strength within myself to finally do it. at first it was a debate on if it was the right thing to do and i almost had to physically force myself to hit that send button. but it worked. i feel better and the results could blow your mind. it wasnt so much to give him a wake up call as it was just something that i had to do. i wasn't happy and i was tired of letting it go on and just dealing with something i shouldnt have to compromise my emotions for. and not only did it straighten things out? but it helped me realize that im a lot stronger then i believe and i dont need anyone or anything to make me feel like im me. i dont need another half to complete me and what a splendid feeling it was to fall back into myself and come home. i dont want to leave this home ive built deep in my very being for anyone ever again. thats not nessecarily saying that i dont ever want to be in a relationship again, i suppose quite the contrary considering im mending the wounds of the fallen love as i type, but in a sense as i never want to lose sight of who i am and what i stand for, and with that being said, what i WONT stand for. i sacraficed what i knew to be right to try and make something that was really wrong work. now its better and compromised and in the ending result, i really think he did wake up.

but if this endevor has taught be anything , its to not lose yourself for anyone, no matter how in love you are, or how in love you THINK you are, you are you. be you.