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i'm not sure where i am in terms of, well, just about anything.
but i am very grateful for Natalie Edgar and a few other fabulous people who find a way to make me smile through my uncertainties.
on August 17th i will be returning to Paris Beauty College, for the third fucking time.
my course will only be 6 months this time around, though, because i'm taking the esthetician course (so hit me up for free facials and waxings, because i'm gonna need to practice).
i'm hoping that since my required time is so much shorter than when i tried the cosmetology course, i'll be more motivated to actually GO to class and GET THROUGH IT. if i can do this, come April/May i will be a licensed esthetician. then i will be freeee to roammm and find a goddamn job.
social anxiety and depression suck ballz, but watching my friends play instuments and sing their little hearts out and smile smile smile makes me happy! :)
i'm coming to terms with the fact that my relationship with Mike will never be what it was and what we wish it could still be, and as upset as i am about it i know that him moving to Alaska to work in salmon hatcheries and on salmon boats (Deadliest Catch type shit, fkn scary) is really what's best for him, and us. i'm glad that he is getting his life together, and doing something that is right up his strange little alley. time to stop fighting each other and enjoy the time we have left, whether it be two weeks or a year. i love him to death, and always will.
but i am very grateful for Natalie Edgar and a few other fabulous people who find a way to make me smile through my uncertainties.
on August 17th i will be returning to Paris Beauty College, for the third fucking time.
my course will only be 6 months this time around, though, because i'm taking the esthetician course (so hit me up for free facials and waxings, because i'm gonna need to practice).
i'm hoping that since my required time is so much shorter than when i tried the cosmetology course, i'll be more motivated to actually GO to class and GET THROUGH IT. if i can do this, come April/May i will be a licensed esthetician. then i will be freeee to roammm and find a goddamn job.
social anxiety and depression suck ballz, but watching my friends play instuments and sing their little hearts out and smile smile smile makes me happy! :)
i'm coming to terms with the fact that my relationship with Mike will never be what it was and what we wish it could still be, and as upset as i am about it i know that him moving to Alaska to work in salmon hatcheries and on salmon boats (Deadliest Catch type shit, fkn scary) is really what's best for him, and us. i'm glad that he is getting his life together, and doing something that is right up his strange little alley. time to stop fighting each other and enjoy the time we have left, whether it be two weeks or a year. i love him to death, and always will.