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My friends mean everything to me. So do their opinions. If they don't like someone or something I'm involved in..then I rethink it. I rethink it and sometimes agree with them, and sometimes I disagree. Because I can disagree sometimes, I know it's not just me following whatever they say. But this time around..I can't help but agree. They love me and I know they only want the best of the best for me. I'm too willing to settle for something less, but they just don't. But really..even though I agree, can I do it? They can only help me along so far, you know? It's not like they can be there and make it happen for sure. They can just support me with whatever I choose to do.
What made me realize that they were so right..was that I wasn't mad when they told me what they thought. I completely agreed with them and couldn't find a way to counter it except with words that sounded empty even to me. I don't know why I'm hanging onto this when there are so many things that aren't going how I want, need, or deserve them to go. I don't know how much longer I can pretend everything's okay when I can't even make myself feel genuinely bad for what happened.
I'm sorry I'm being so vague. :/
What made me realize that they were so right..was that I wasn't mad when they told me what they thought. I completely agreed with them and couldn't find a way to counter it except with words that sounded empty even to me. I don't know why I'm hanging onto this when there are so many things that aren't going how I want, need, or deserve them to go. I don't know how much longer I can pretend everything's okay when I can't even make myself feel genuinely bad for what happened.
I'm sorry I'm being so vague. :/