we're never gonna feel as full as we felt
i can't stop thinking about you, and it sucks. nothing terrible. i'm not having any bad thoughts exactly, just ones that make me remember how we used to be. when we thought we were happy. sometimes i wish i could just talk to you again, like the way we did before. when we could just say anything we wanted without being afraid of vulnerability. i remember your serious face the best. and to be honest, i don't even remember the way your voice sounds anymore.
there's been at least a million different scenarios i've played in my head involving me and you and talking over 608 med vegs. haha. but i know that letting you go was for the best. we're happier now, and way healthier. i remember when calvin and i were at the mall and you were working, and when you went outside for a cigarette you were singing. it was so weird to hear your voice again. i can't explain explain the painful familiarity of it all.
ahhh. so much coming back to me. it's funny how much i forgot about or have left out. it's not painful anymore, just sad i guess. i feel like there were so many things we could have avoided. like doing everything we could emotionally to destroy one another, and then decide to drown with eachother in our really ridiculous sorrows and weed.
i loved you so much. but i know it's okay now. i know that you and i were always better off apart. i know where i belong now. and i thank you for showing me the way here.
there's been at least a million different scenarios i've played in my head involving me and you and talking over 608 med vegs. haha. but i know that letting you go was for the best. we're happier now, and way healthier. i remember when calvin and i were at the mall and you were working, and when you went outside for a cigarette you were singing. it was so weird to hear your voice again. i can't explain explain the painful familiarity of it all.
ahhh. so much coming back to me. it's funny how much i forgot about or have left out. it's not painful anymore, just sad i guess. i feel like there were so many things we could have avoided. like doing everything we could emotionally to destroy one another, and then decide to drown with eachother in our really ridiculous sorrows and weed.
i loved you so much. but i know it's okay now. i know that you and i were always better off apart. i know where i belong now. and i thank you for showing me the way here.