her heart stopped for one second
I have such a horrible headache right now.
I just had a conversation that I'm not sure was necessary, but it's done. Sometimes, no matter how pessimistic I tend to be, I notice that I now have a ridiculously optimistic attitude toward a few things. I guess that's alright. To care? I'm not going to settle anymore. That has always been my problem. And I see people obsessing over the meaning in their lives &everything that depresses them and I don't want to be like that. I'm fine with where I'm at for once. I was actually happy this summer without something I thought I always needed. Like everyone else. I'm going to try and not ruin anyone else's life from now on and not get into things halfheartedly. I'm going to figure school out &save money &things look good I guess. I'm not that stressed for once in my life and that's great. A little part of me is always still worried about everything, but I'll ignore it for as long as possible.
After keeping a schedule for three days that was giving someone else dark circles under their eyes, and not remembering a whole day, I'm pretty sure I laugh at the most inappropriate times. Regardless, all of it was really good.
Jess &I noticed something crazy about me the other day, but I think it's amazing. I think it means I'm not as cold hearted as everyone may think. Surprise!
I'm looking forward to this week. Tell me when I haven't said enough.
I just had a conversation that I'm not sure was necessary, but it's done. Sometimes, no matter how pessimistic I tend to be, I notice that I now have a ridiculously optimistic attitude toward a few things. I guess that's alright. To care? I'm not going to settle anymore. That has always been my problem. And I see people obsessing over the meaning in their lives &everything that depresses them and I don't want to be like that. I'm fine with where I'm at for once. I was actually happy this summer without something I thought I always needed. Like everyone else. I'm going to try and not ruin anyone else's life from now on and not get into things halfheartedly. I'm going to figure school out &save money &things look good I guess. I'm not that stressed for once in my life and that's great. A little part of me is always still worried about everything, but I'll ignore it for as long as possible.
After keeping a schedule for three days that was giving someone else dark circles under their eyes, and not remembering a whole day, I'm pretty sure I laugh at the most inappropriate times. Regardless, all of it was really good.
Jess &I noticed something crazy about me the other day, but I think it's amazing. I think it means I'm not as cold hearted as everyone may think. Surprise!
I'm looking forward to this week. Tell me when I haven't said enough.