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i found myself an angel. or more like he found me. whatever.
i don't feel like explaining that any further, he knows who he is and it's nobody elses business.
i saw my grade one teacher today, she looks the exact same. . except that when i last saw her i was up to her knees, and now i'm taller than her. i guess 10 years can do alot to a person. anyways, we were talking and she mentioned her daughter, Carly, who I knew. .
the end of the year party in grade one was held at ms cooneys house and we had a big waterfight, and all the girls changed in carlys room. so i remembered that.
carlys' arms now are all covered in scars and scabs, from the hand to her shoulder. she looked so sad. even when she smiled when i told her about changing in her room she looked sad. she reminds me of what i used to be when i cut alot. i should have told her that i care even though i havn't seen her in 10 years, i should have given her a hug, i should have made her better. but i didn't, i said my "hello", talked about when i was young, and moved on.
now if something happens to her i'm going to feel responsible for it. if she ends up killing herself i'm going to blame me. i had a chance to help her, and i didn't.
i don't feel like explaining that any further, he knows who he is and it's nobody elses business.
i saw my grade one teacher today, she looks the exact same. . except that when i last saw her i was up to her knees, and now i'm taller than her. i guess 10 years can do alot to a person. anyways, we were talking and she mentioned her daughter, Carly, who I knew. .
the end of the year party in grade one was held at ms cooneys house and we had a big waterfight, and all the girls changed in carlys room. so i remembered that.
carlys' arms now are all covered in scars and scabs, from the hand to her shoulder. she looked so sad. even when she smiled when i told her about changing in her room she looked sad. she reminds me of what i used to be when i cut alot. i should have told her that i care even though i havn't seen her in 10 years, i should have given her a hug, i should have made her better. but i didn't, i said my "hello", talked about when i was young, and moved on.
now if something happens to her i'm going to feel responsible for it. if she ends up killing herself i'm going to blame me. i had a chance to help her, and i didn't.