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So let's talk about love and let's talk about lies.
First up to bat? Adam Dooms and I don't talk much any longer, until the day of my birthday when he asked when he could come see me. Which I found endlessly amusing, and not shocking at all. However, he has a girlfriend. But who knows? Just because he wan't sto see me doesn't mean we can't be JUST friends. Right? Right?
Running to first base is Rachel Leigh Nawrot, biggest liar and backstabber I've ever had for a best friend. Let me tell you, she has scored a home run when it comes to ruining her own life. No one likes her because she runs her mouth all the time and I'm tired of sticking up for her. My patience is wearing thin and took a dive when she attempted to seduce Kris, aka the biggest mistake of her life.
Speaking of which, I love Kris. Who would have thought, a year later, Kris with a K would come running back into the game? Yeah,you can still find entries in this journal about him and how much I liked him then. Things are so much better now than they were before. I'm in love. It's amazing.
It didn't start off so smooth, with Rachel trying to get with him and him not wanting to ruin his relationship with me for a 14 year old, the constant reminder of how he erased himself from me for 8 months, and how I haven't quite let that go yet. His jealousy over Andrew, and Niles, and Adam, and basically any boy who ever liked me or still likes me.
But whatever, nothing can be perfect all the time. Right now I couldn't breathe without him, but we still have some issues. Like, I'm not okay with Ashley coming to see him in a few weeks and staying at his house.
I'm REALLY not okay with that. But there's nothing I can do about it.
That's problem number one. Number two? Will Atkins.
Yeah.
Ever since I helped him get through the shock of Rachel. this kid has been clawing at my jeans. I mean, he wants me. Bad.
I'm sticking to my guns and sticking to my morals with this one. I'm not going to lie, he's hot as fuck. I'm attracted to him. But NOTHING could ever make me look away from Kris. And I told Will. I told him straight up, I'm interested in him but I love Kris. And nothing will ever change that. Of course, Will says he respects that and he'll respect my boundaries, but that hasn't stopped him from laying down the lines and slippin' me the looks. I'm not even that nice to him, when he calls I answer with 'Hey scene kid.'
But whatever..hopefully Kris is thinking the same thing I am. If he did anything with Ashley it would kill me. Even though he says, they're only best friends. They're only really good friends. She's only staying at his house. Nothing will happen.
I'm only stressing over it, like everyday.
Besides that, my parents are making me sick.
Physically ill.
I cried so hard last night that I threw up everything I ate that day, which wasn't much to begin with.
It's not hard to see that I'm unhealthy, and according to my mom it's all my fault.
Oh, and my dad finally fessed up; " I don't care about your happiness."
I've been waiting about 6 years to finally hear him tell the truth for once.
Props, dad.
First up to bat? Adam Dooms and I don't talk much any longer, until the day of my birthday when he asked when he could come see me. Which I found endlessly amusing, and not shocking at all. However, he has a girlfriend. But who knows? Just because he wan't sto see me doesn't mean we can't be JUST friends. Right? Right?
Running to first base is Rachel Leigh Nawrot, biggest liar and backstabber I've ever had for a best friend. Let me tell you, she has scored a home run when it comes to ruining her own life. No one likes her because she runs her mouth all the time and I'm tired of sticking up for her. My patience is wearing thin and took a dive when she attempted to seduce Kris, aka the biggest mistake of her life.
Speaking of which, I love Kris. Who would have thought, a year later, Kris with a K would come running back into the game? Yeah,you can still find entries in this journal about him and how much I liked him then. Things are so much better now than they were before. I'm in love. It's amazing.
It didn't start off so smooth, with Rachel trying to get with him and him not wanting to ruin his relationship with me for a 14 year old, the constant reminder of how he erased himself from me for 8 months, and how I haven't quite let that go yet. His jealousy over Andrew, and Niles, and Adam, and basically any boy who ever liked me or still likes me.
But whatever, nothing can be perfect all the time. Right now I couldn't breathe without him, but we still have some issues. Like, I'm not okay with Ashley coming to see him in a few weeks and staying at his house.
I'm REALLY not okay with that. But there's nothing I can do about it.
That's problem number one. Number two? Will Atkins.
Yeah.
Ever since I helped him get through the shock of Rachel. this kid has been clawing at my jeans. I mean, he wants me. Bad.
I'm sticking to my guns and sticking to my morals with this one. I'm not going to lie, he's hot as fuck. I'm attracted to him. But NOTHING could ever make me look away from Kris. And I told Will. I told him straight up, I'm interested in him but I love Kris. And nothing will ever change that. Of course, Will says he respects that and he'll respect my boundaries, but that hasn't stopped him from laying down the lines and slippin' me the looks. I'm not even that nice to him, when he calls I answer with 'Hey scene kid.'
But whatever..hopefully Kris is thinking the same thing I am. If he did anything with Ashley it would kill me. Even though he says, they're only best friends. They're only really good friends. She's only staying at his house. Nothing will happen.
I'm only stressing over it, like everyday.
Besides that, my parents are making me sick.
Physically ill.
I cried so hard last night that I threw up everything I ate that day, which wasn't much to begin with.
It's not hard to see that I'm unhealthy, and according to my mom it's all my fault.
Oh, and my dad finally fessed up; " I don't care about your happiness."
I've been waiting about 6 years to finally hear him tell the truth for once.
Props, dad.