nothing.

[___realize]

I am an empty shell.
I have skin and bones and flesh.
But inside is nothing.
I'm so tired
Of being bored
Of being shattered
Of being in love with nothing.
I want to go and just forget.
I want to forget everything.
I have a permanent pain in the middle of my chest.
It's knotting over and over and over.
I want to start over and over and over.
I'm tired of playing this game.
I need a pause button,
I need to catch up
I need to stop and think and cry
I'm so tired of this life.
Nothing is exciting anymore.
I'm not interested in anyone or anything.
Is this what it feels like?
To be perfectly numb to everyhing but fear?
I want a two way road
I want to stop trying by myself
I want to go all the way
I want to press rewind
I want to forget about you
I want to not care
I want to be happy about something for once.
I want no more stress
I want to get my work done

But I'll keep dreaming
Over and over and over
That's the only thing that keeps me going
Are these nothings.
All these nothings.
All these nothings.
Nothings.