I know how this sounds, I'm going insane.
GAH! i don't know how to explain it to you, and I wish i could. Not simply because It would be amazing to finally have someone understand me, but because I want you to know how It feels... I'm disconnected from this world. And I know you can see it... when you look in my eyes, we both know I'm not there, and I'm afraid I never will be. I wish you knew what it was like to wake up in the morning and want to fall back asleep, not from heavy eye lids and exhaustion, but because you just left a world you felt more at home in. I dream all day you know. I can fall asleep for ten minutes at a time, and dream... In a place that isn't sleep, but isn't awake. I can live there. I wish you could dream with my mind, so then I could show you, for my words do not do it justice. I wish you knew what it was like to walk through the hall ways, or down the street, watch people look at you, feel their gaze, and want to reach at and scream at them... to tell them that there is SO MUCH MORE TO LIFE THAN WHAT THEY ALLOW THEMSELVES TO SEE! how do you do it?!?!? how are you content to just live day after day! I go insane in your reality. That's why I'm never around. That's way I dissapear for months at a time. because I can't live this way. I KNOW I'm mean to be somewhere else do something else, I know I'm not normal. I just have to find a way to get to the place I belong....
I know how this sounds, I'm going insane.
I know how this sounds, I'm going insane.