Yeah.
People that fuck me over and make me look like I'm not worth shit deserve the absolute worst. I don't regret anything I say or do when I'm pissed. I'm not sorry that I stand up for myself. I don't think anybody understands the hell I've lived for the past year and half. I will not take being ditched or being 2nd best anymore. I deserve the best because that's what I give people in a relationship unless they fuck me over. I don't ask for much, just don't do drugs. It's not worth losing your kids over. Is that really so much to ask? I asked a lot of people and everybody agreed with me. I just wish people could admit when they're wrong. I wish people would grow up and open their eyes. There are so many things I'd like to say but it's not worth it. I'm going to cut off all ties. I'm not going to try to contact anybody. I hate everybody that doesn't care about Gavin or treat him the way he deserves to be treated. He's the best little baby in the entire world, and he should be showered with gifts and cards and hugs and kisses. Anybody that doesn't do that for him is a piece of shit and will never be welcome in our life. If anybody wants to see him, I'll consider it. I'm not letting him out of my sight, or in anyone's vehicle besides mine or my mom/dad's. If that can't be accepted either, see ya. Seriously, people are pathetic and disgusting. I would die for my kids. I would give up everything to be there for them and support them. I work my ass off for them. I go to school locally instead of going to my dream college so that I can give them a more supportive environment to live in. I could go out every night, but I don't because they like mommy to give them baths and put them to bed. I could go out with my friends every day but I don't because they enjoy playing with me and going places with me. My kids will grow up knowing that their mom gave them everything and loved them with all her heart, and we'll have a great relationship. I know people whose parents didn't give a fuck what they did and got too involved with their own bullshit and drama instead of putting their kids first, and those kids grew up to be scumbags. I'm going to make sure my kids succeed and live out all of their dreams. And from the looks of it, they're better off if I do it alone. Nobody wants somebody to float in and out of their life. Someday, I will meet somebody that loves us all and my kids will realize that's what family is. It's not just biological, it's support and love.