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So, Monday night I came in at 8pm to close. We didn't leave until like 4:20am.
Tuesday I came in at 8pm as well, even though I wasn't scheduled to. We left at 4am...again.
Yesterday Caden and I carved our pumpkins. I took some pretty good pictures. He likes taking pictures with me now. He's such a little person now..my little friend. =] Mike called from work and I said I'd come in at 10pm to help close. Lou was closing so it wasn't that bad because at least we get to listen to decent music. Somebody at work said if I wasn't pregnant, they'd date me and to "keep that in mind." It was kind of weird. IDK. I ended up leaving around 4am as usual. But, we had to do madddd extra cleaning because the CEO of the corporation was coming in today or some shit. On the way home some lady on Main Street came at me head on. Then, she was swerving all over the road trying to pull over so I called the cops to give them a heads up. I hope they found her and she was okay. I'd hate to see somebody get hurt because somebody's bad choice..or even for her to have gotten hurt.
Today I'm not going to go into work even if they call me in. Maybe I'll get to spend some time with friends. I really want to go to the movies or something to get out of the house. I need to start getting my shit back together outside of work. Since last week, I smoked a pack of cigarettes. =\ I don't know what I'm doing. I'm happy though. I miss Rob and all the good times we've had, but I'm getting over it. I'm accepting that things won't ever work out between us. Even if he gets out and wants to be with me, it probably just won't work because he'll NEVER change. He'll never admit he's wrong. He'll never apologize for what he's done to me and put me through. And, he'll never admit to all the shit he lied about. I wish he'd do all those things so we can start a fresh, HEALTHY, normal relationship with no fighting and no stress. I think he'd see I'm a completely different person when I'm not being controlled, bullied, and stressed out. I'd be the perfect girlfriend if things were better.
Tuesday I came in at 8pm as well, even though I wasn't scheduled to. We left at 4am...again.
Yesterday Caden and I carved our pumpkins. I took some pretty good pictures. He likes taking pictures with me now. He's such a little person now..my little friend. =] Mike called from work and I said I'd come in at 10pm to help close. Lou was closing so it wasn't that bad because at least we get to listen to decent music. Somebody at work said if I wasn't pregnant, they'd date me and to "keep that in mind." It was kind of weird. IDK. I ended up leaving around 4am as usual. But, we had to do madddd extra cleaning because the CEO of the corporation was coming in today or some shit. On the way home some lady on Main Street came at me head on. Then, she was swerving all over the road trying to pull over so I called the cops to give them a heads up. I hope they found her and she was okay. I'd hate to see somebody get hurt because somebody's bad choice..or even for her to have gotten hurt.
Today I'm not going to go into work even if they call me in. Maybe I'll get to spend some time with friends. I really want to go to the movies or something to get out of the house. I need to start getting my shit back together outside of work. Since last week, I smoked a pack of cigarettes. =\ I don't know what I'm doing. I'm happy though. I miss Rob and all the good times we've had, but I'm getting over it. I'm accepting that things won't ever work out between us. Even if he gets out and wants to be with me, it probably just won't work because he'll NEVER change. He'll never admit he's wrong. He'll never apologize for what he's done to me and put me through. And, he'll never admit to all the shit he lied about. I wish he'd do all those things so we can start a fresh, HEALTHY, normal relationship with no fighting and no stress. I think he'd see I'm a completely different person when I'm not being controlled, bullied, and stressed out. I'd be the perfect girlfriend if things were better.