I'm over it.
He's not right for me and that's all I'm going to say about that. I thought it would be worth the effort, but it's not, so why bother.
I'm convinced to no end that I am incapable of meeting someone worthwhile. Even further, it is impossible for me to actually date a guy long enough for it to go somewhere because I give up when I feel it isn't going right... which is 99.9% of the time. I know that I don't need a boyfriend to be happy because I've learned to be happy without one, but I want the companionship. Maybe my standards are too high? Well I see it like this: Why settle for less? I mean really... why would I want someone that is less than perfect for me? Why waste time with someone that is not at the same maturity level as I am, doesn't make me completely happy, can't commit, and doesn't share common interests and/or goals with me? (In general, of course, not necessarily this specific situation.) And that's pretty much what it comes down to; the lack of a connection. I know guys don't mature at the same levels as girls do, but are there any guys in the world that are ready for a relationship? I know it's possible, so what's the problem? Am I looking in all the wrong places? Am I looking for the wrong type of guy? Maybe I need to get out of my comfort zone & put myself out there to see what's up. I'm hesitant though because I doubt I can find what I'm looking for. How about this, why hasn't he found me yet? Why am I stuck desperately searching instead of someone conveniently falling into my lap?
My conclusion: ALL GUYS ARE ROCK HEADS. I'm done worrying about them. I need to focus on things that are actually important: myself, school, my best friend and hanging out with her as much as possible, and my family.
I'm convinced to no end that I am incapable of meeting someone worthwhile. Even further, it is impossible for me to actually date a guy long enough for it to go somewhere because I give up when I feel it isn't going right... which is 99.9% of the time. I know that I don't need a boyfriend to be happy because I've learned to be happy without one, but I want the companionship. Maybe my standards are too high? Well I see it like this: Why settle for less? I mean really... why would I want someone that is less than perfect for me? Why waste time with someone that is not at the same maturity level as I am, doesn't make me completely happy, can't commit, and doesn't share common interests and/or goals with me? (In general, of course, not necessarily this specific situation.) And that's pretty much what it comes down to; the lack of a connection. I know guys don't mature at the same levels as girls do, but are there any guys in the world that are ready for a relationship? I know it's possible, so what's the problem? Am I looking in all the wrong places? Am I looking for the wrong type of guy? Maybe I need to get out of my comfort zone & put myself out there to see what's up. I'm hesitant though because I doubt I can find what I'm looking for. How about this, why hasn't he found me yet? Why am I stuck desperately searching instead of someone conveniently falling into my lap?
My conclusion: ALL GUYS ARE ROCK HEADS. I'm done worrying about them. I need to focus on things that are actually important: myself, school, my best friend and hanging out with her as much as possible, and my family.