hard for you i've fallen, but you can't break my fall
who am i kidding... i am still crazy for this boy. he gets too drunk and tries to sleep in the gravel, and then when i make him get up, he tries to drive home. when i tell him he can't drive home because he's too drunk, he gives up without much of a fight, crashes in josh's bed, and tells me to come cuddle with him until he falls asleep. i cuddle with him and rub his back and his hair until he falls asleep, and then when he does, i whisper that i'm going home, kiss him on the forehead, and then make my way down the walkway to my own house. when i get here, i miss him like crazy and want to go back and cuddle with him until i fall asleep too, but i'm too afraid that my mom will wake up and come yell at me and scare him away again.
i don't think he's going to make it to montana;; this might be terrible, but i hope he doesn't. this is the most i've cared about anyone in the past year and a half, and i really want something to come out of it. if he'll quit running away and being afraid of it, i'm pretty sure that we could be amazing... we're almost complete opposites but we have so much that we could teach each other. i don't know... i didn't really mean to care this much and i didn't mean to get this involved, but i do and i did, and now i just want something to come out of it.
i don't think he's going to make it to montana;; this might be terrible, but i hope he doesn't. this is the most i've cared about anyone in the past year and a half, and i really want something to come out of it. if he'll quit running away and being afraid of it, i'm pretty sure that we could be amazing... we're almost complete opposites but we have so much that we could teach each other. i don't know... i didn't really mean to care this much and i didn't mean to get this involved, but i do and i did, and now i just want something to come out of it.