i love you, is that okay?
i'm falling for this boy, hard. i know that it's bad for me and that i should absolutely just stay away, but when he is so incredibly sweet to me, all of those bad thoughts just fly out of my head. he told me tonight that i should come to montana with them... the stupid part is that i would go in a heartbeat if there was any way that my mom would let me. he told me that i was going to be a hoe when i go to JMU, so i told him that he was going to be a man whore in montana... he said, "nope, i'm gonna work two jobs, come home, and call you." it's bullshit, i know, but the stupid, naive part of me really really wants to believe it. i don't even know what it is about this boy that i like so much, but he really is amazing to me even if no one else sees it. he's such a geek, he makes me laugh, he's somehow managed to earn my trust, he says that he's actually shy and that he gets nervous around me and doesn't know how to act. he has these gorgeous blue eyes and the cutest smile ever. he's not afraid to make fun of me and i like that somehow. as much as he likes to act all tough and happy all the time, he has this vulnerable side to him that makes me like him that much more. he's in love with his cat callie. he's such a mama's boy. he's this ghetto boy who loves jay-z with a passion, but he also really likes the used. i don't know... he's just really really great and i need to get over him.