pecimistic
Fuck my life. Why is everything always up and down, never just normal drama-free fun? Why does happiness seem like the most unattainable difficult thing to have in my life. No amount of positivity or surrounding myself with the right people can seem to take away all of the incessant drama. I am so tired of it, I have so much to look forward to but like always, there is someone/thing holding me back and dragging me down. Fuck it, I am soo sick and tired of it. I just want normalcy, or a fun interesting drama-free existence. Laid back and care free. Fuck everyone who feels the need to rain on my parade with their pessimism and negativity, if they don't want to see the world and life as beautifully as I do, why do they need to try and convince me of how ugly and shitty it is?? Fuccck them. They can be miserable if they would like. I am not trying to be ignorant to all of the terrible things that people do, or the awful things ongoing in the world, but at the end of the day, I just want to have a smile on my face and say that I lived each day to the fullest, why does that make me such a bad person? Death is the only thing that is certain, we're all dying, so forgive me if I want to live a little and enjoy the time I do have. If you would like to think that we live forever, that there is no clock ticking away the seconds of out life and feel comfortable wasting away your days, then these people can do it on their own time away from me.
Okay, rant over.
Okay, rant over.