hes more than average, hes everything
i hate that i miss ryan so much, but i love it too. it just hurts more and more everytime i see him because we get so close and then i have to up and leave him, or he has to up and leave me. we have become really close and he is honestly one of the only people i feel like its ok to be myself around and really let them know how i feel. its like i dont have to try with him, its just there and i love that feeling. its amazing, and he is amazing. we have been together for four months all together today, and i LOVE it. i think im going to go to his christmas dance with him in a few weeks, and i honestly can't wait. i was really disappointed, i was supposed to go and visit him on saturday but im not going anymore. he has work and a football banquet and i would never want him to miss either. i love the understanding that we have and i love that we can be so open with eachother. well ok, more me being open to him than him being open to me. it just comes easier to me, i know that he cares for me and he shows it, its just hard for him to tell me how he feels. but you know what, i love it actually because everytime we are on the phone, he trys too. and i just love that he is making an effort to tell me everything his heart feels. hes definatly not your average boy.
edit: also, i really miss his baby sisters and patty his step mom. i was basically with them every day of the summer, and i miss that. i really don't know what to get anyone for christmas, including him. so it really sucks. but if you have any suggestions tell me some other way than on here, cause well he reads this.
happy four months baby, i freaking miss you!!!
me: what else are you up too.
ryan: just talkin to the love of my life
me: oh yeah, who would that be.
ward2008: idk just sum girl
me: oh yeah.
ryan: ya shes pretty cool
me: oh yeah, cool huh?
ryan: ya and the most beautiful girl i have ever seen in my life
me: beautiful, i wouldnt say that.
ryan: o u dont even know
ryan: shes so gorgeous
me: oh yeah, who is this girl. im dying to meet her.
ryan: ya u would like her
ryan: shes about ur height, brownish green eyes, blonde hair, and she has the best personality that any girl could possibly have
me: oh, so shes just like an ordinary girl?
ryan: heck no she aint ordinary
ryan: shes out of this world
me: haha. :-)
me: you are making me smile.
ryan: good thats what i was trying to do
edit: also, i really miss his baby sisters and patty his step mom. i was basically with them every day of the summer, and i miss that. i really don't know what to get anyone for christmas, including him. so it really sucks. but if you have any suggestions tell me some other way than on here, cause well he reads this.
happy four months baby, i freaking miss you!!!
me: what else are you up too.
ryan: just talkin to the love of my life
me: oh yeah, who would that be.
ward2008: idk just sum girl
me: oh yeah.
ryan: ya shes pretty cool
me: oh yeah, cool huh?
ryan: ya and the most beautiful girl i have ever seen in my life
me: beautiful, i wouldnt say that.
ryan: o u dont even know
ryan: shes so gorgeous
me: oh yeah, who is this girl. im dying to meet her.
ryan: ya u would like her
ryan: shes about ur height, brownish green eyes, blonde hair, and she has the best personality that any girl could possibly have
me: oh, so shes just like an ordinary girl?
ryan: heck no she aint ordinary
ryan: shes out of this world
me: haha. :-)
me: you are making me smile.
ryan: good thats what i was trying to do