Im garbage.
I hate that im still paying for a mistake with some guy who wasnt worth anytime. If only he realized how bad i feel, how i think about how i fucked things up so bad everday. If only he knew that every wish i made was that things would go back to when he showed and told the world how much he loved me. I don't know what to do. Im still the same little girl he met 4 years ago, but im his now. We never used to break up all the time, he never used to do the things he does now. I know it's my fault, and even though it's been a year and a half since i stupidly took those pills and made that mistake he won't let me forget it. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so helpless and lost. I feel like im not good enough for him anymore.