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im no good at improv so i wrote my speech down.i have been putting off writing this speech, thinking id have time to do it later. this constant dread of things being over has gotten the best of me.on the final night of dracula, i stood on the stage saying my lines, looking at everything, at everyone, i wanted this feeling to stay, i didnt want the curtains to close. i wanted to live in this realm of happiness that i get when im on stage.over time, this troupe has not gotten the best reputation, now there is no need in going into that..weve all lived through it.but as i looked around me yesterday, one final time in my highschool life, i understood that it wasnt the theatres fault.that stage is more my home then anyone can imagine.coming into highschool, i like most others, was looking for acceptance.i came into this class like everyone else, as a titled newbie. i remember i was so scared. so scared to disappoint. i thought i was good enough, not pretty enough, not talented enough, in some cases not wierd enough.one thing i regret is how much time i spent being paralyzed by my insecurities and not getting to know these amazing people. everyone that i have met through this class have been amazing.we have fought and we have lied to each other, talked badly about one another, weve wished things, bad things, weve helped each other, wve run lines with each others, weve slept over each others houses, we went through some firsts together, weve been through 3 teachers together, most importantly though..when it comes down to it, weve stucktogether.theres a hurt in me tonight. a hurt that i cant even begin to try to express.through all the inimportance of this wretched caddyness, i truly found my home. you guys have given me something so special. youve given me memories. the love of my life is the stage. i cant do anything but this.if i had it in me idstand
here and tell each and everyone of you what i feel for you, i wish i could tell everyone the beautiful things about you, what youve taught me, how you changed my life, how you blew me away but we must not drag on the precious time we have with another, we must not dwell in the things we cannot change. i will take time out to thank you rey, for giving the life back into something so beautiful,thing that can be so beautiful.as always im a complete contradiction standing here dragging this on because i dont want to say goodbye. you all mean so much to me, i dont ever want to disappoint you.youve made me tougher. youve made me wiser. and i just want to say thank you. thank you all for being a part of a long journey for me, and thank you for accepting me.
here and tell each and everyone of you what i feel for you, i wish i could tell everyone the beautiful things about you, what youve taught me, how you changed my life, how you blew me away but we must not drag on the precious time we have with another, we must not dwell in the things we cannot change. i will take time out to thank you rey, for giving the life back into something so beautiful,thing that can be so beautiful.as always im a complete contradiction standing here dragging this on because i dont want to say goodbye. you all mean so much to me, i dont ever want to disappoint you.youve made me tougher. youve made me wiser. and i just want to say thank you. thank you all for being a part of a long journey for me, and thank you for accepting me.