the packers won the first ever superbowl
Energy. Where did you come from? Could it be from the adrenaline rush of talking to Neal FINALLY after so long of having small, school ONLY related conversations all the time? Or from talking to a certain someone online right now? I don't know. All I know is it's extremely misplaced because now I'm ready for bed but ALAS! I cannot sleep.
I've found that I have once again become detached from my home life. I am home very little now in the afternoons and when I am home, I focus on schoolwork or on playing online games in order to seclude myself from the rest of my household.
I no longer eat all that much either. I eat half a cheeseburger at lunch. I come home and I eat a bowl of cereal OR some chips OR drink a yogurt. And that's it. I've also found that when I'm thirsty, I drink a Pepsi. It inflates my thirst and I then drink an entire bottle of water, which is good because I haven't been consuming much liquid at all lately and am dehydrated but not severe enough to be placed in the hospital for IV fluids. Extremely close to it though. I'm starting to feel how I did this past summer. Headaches constantly; extreme thirst but no desire to drink anything nor the ability to drink anything; drastically depleated appetite which means I'm not eating. I'm bruising easily again and my joins are starting to swell and bruise more often and much easier. I really hope I'm not getting sick again...All I want to do is go to school to see friends, come home, shower, and sleep. Or on the weekends get up and go to a friends home where we just lounge around and watch T.V./movies. Lazy me. Bleck.
Things seem so busy in the world around me. I'm still partially involved in it because of school, but other than that I'm slowly starting to withdraw from the social world. Hopefully I start having more to do with my friends. Like. As much as I did over Thanksgiving break.
I miss Nikole. Something terrible too. I sent her a text message over break and made her cry and I feel really bad for it but I mean...where are you Nikiname? I miss you...
I miss how things once were, where we could all just hang out. There's not a lot left to do anymore. Hopefully I can incorporate the group into being Kiefer, Amanda, Nikole, Andrew, Stef, Ant, Neal, and me. And then the occassional Steph C. and Morgan. That way everyone has at least ONE person they identify to more than the others and no two people identify with the same one person. =) That's what I need to do...I need to start organizing and planning. Something to give me something productive to do to accomodate my frickin ADD and OCD and decrease my depression.
I'm tired. History es on brain. I have to pee. Night.
♥
I've found that I have once again become detached from my home life. I am home very little now in the afternoons and when I am home, I focus on schoolwork or on playing online games in order to seclude myself from the rest of my household.
I no longer eat all that much either. I eat half a cheeseburger at lunch. I come home and I eat a bowl of cereal OR some chips OR drink a yogurt. And that's it. I've also found that when I'm thirsty, I drink a Pepsi. It inflates my thirst and I then drink an entire bottle of water, which is good because I haven't been consuming much liquid at all lately and am dehydrated but not severe enough to be placed in the hospital for IV fluids. Extremely close to it though. I'm starting to feel how I did this past summer. Headaches constantly; extreme thirst but no desire to drink anything nor the ability to drink anything; drastically depleated appetite which means I'm not eating. I'm bruising easily again and my joins are starting to swell and bruise more often and much easier. I really hope I'm not getting sick again...All I want to do is go to school to see friends, come home, shower, and sleep. Or on the weekends get up and go to a friends home where we just lounge around and watch T.V./movies. Lazy me. Bleck.
Things seem so busy in the world around me. I'm still partially involved in it because of school, but other than that I'm slowly starting to withdraw from the social world. Hopefully I start having more to do with my friends. Like. As much as I did over Thanksgiving break.
I miss Nikole. Something terrible too. I sent her a text message over break and made her cry and I feel really bad for it but I mean...where are you Nikiname? I miss you...
I miss how things once were, where we could all just hang out. There's not a lot left to do anymore. Hopefully I can incorporate the group into being Kiefer, Amanda, Nikole, Andrew, Stef, Ant, Neal, and me. And then the occassional Steph C. and Morgan. That way everyone has at least ONE person they identify to more than the others and no two people identify with the same one person. =) That's what I need to do...I need to start organizing and planning. Something to give me something productive to do to accomodate my frickin ADD and OCD and decrease my depression.
I'm tired. History es on brain. I have to pee. Night.
♥