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[___myillusion]

so i didnt go to track today. i was
a rebel. tomorrow im quitting. i cant
take it anymore. its just too much. i
mean i just cant take it. yet another
bill in my name, from the hospital came
today. and my mom hasnt paid the ones
since like last augest. wow. shes awesome.
i dont no what im doing with myself.
im screwing up. nothing is working out.
my dad called. i cried. hes supposed to
send me money, has it come yet. umm no.
thats awesome. i really hate him, and what
hes done. i really dont want to have to
visit my grandparents in june. they disgust
me. but my mother is making me. sigh.

i dont even no what to write.
im empty of thought.
im pathetic.

oh yeah. i think i may have
a number one. [[aine noes what
i mean]]

♥