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i was jsut thinkg about something. my situation with this person is pretty much over. but okay. he told me he was in love, that his feelings were unconditional. last time i tlaked to him it sure didnt sound like he was in love with me. but how can you fall out of love in 3 weeks? that doesnt make any sense to me. i tink its going to be really hard to believe someone when they say im in love you,to me. im still not sure how much i believed kurt then. its so perfect captured in the hold me down by motion city.
i love you. however you hold me down.
i just wish i could stop thinking about it. its almost impossible. it puts this sinking feeling in my stomach thinking its been a month and half since we have seen each other. compared to talking everynight for 2 hours or more and seeing each other every weekend. and then just like that. one phone call, one talk in his bedroom and one of the best friends i have ever had is out of my life. i wish we didnt have cycle of going in circles, with a routine of liking each other. i know it will be impossible for me to never have feelings for him. but im almost postive i could remain just best friends. but i guess he cant do that. and i will always have feelings, but never enough to carry me through a relationship. i care about him more then just about anyone except for about 4 people. i always have a way of figuring things out. i think this will work its self out and im turning it over to fate's hands. that is my best bet. as impossible is at is for i gotta let everything take its course. but i don't think i can stand being lonley and boyless all summer. NOT AGAIN.
love,
alison.
i love you. however you hold me down.
i just wish i could stop thinking about it. its almost impossible. it puts this sinking feeling in my stomach thinking its been a month and half since we have seen each other. compared to talking everynight for 2 hours or more and seeing each other every weekend. and then just like that. one phone call, one talk in his bedroom and one of the best friends i have ever had is out of my life. i wish we didnt have cycle of going in circles, with a routine of liking each other. i know it will be impossible for me to never have feelings for him. but im almost postive i could remain just best friends. but i guess he cant do that. and i will always have feelings, but never enough to carry me through a relationship. i care about him more then just about anyone except for about 4 people. i always have a way of figuring things out. i think this will work its self out and im turning it over to fate's hands. that is my best bet. as impossible is at is for i gotta let everything take its course. but i don't think i can stand being lonley and boyless all summer. NOT AGAIN.
love,
alison.