you could be my heroin.
it's time for another emo ranting post; it was inevitable. i can't stay happy for that long, and where better to pour out my innermost feelings than an online journal? of course the answer is nowhere. let's take it by the numbers.
1.) i don't want to go to the academy anymore. i do not wish to be a "freshmen" again, learning all the moves, and what the pecking order is, and where i can stand happily and not have my toes trod upon. i don't want to have to learn which lunch table (or in this case, breakfast, lunch, and dinner table) that i can sit at. i've already done it once, and i really don't want to do it again. i mean, i'm going to be a junior. an upperclassmen, but where i'm going, i'm the lowest rank there is. how much does that suck? lots, of course.
2.) the person i think i talk to the most on this earth, eddy, has even pointed something distressing out to me. i talk to eddy online, only. you may call him an "online friend", but it's only the miles that matter, since we'd have a smashin' good time if he lived around here. but, anyways, i was moaning about the same things i moaned about in item one, and said "it's all a waste of my youth" and he quipped "and aol isn't?" in reference to how much time i sit around and just talk to people on here because i really have nowhere to go during the summer, when school's out. since some of you went to luhi, i do hope you understand. i didn't make friends at luhi, and i'm shy. and there's nowhere to really make friends in indiana, at my age, other than the mall, and, i'm shy. so, i talk to the people i DO know, when i'm online, like austin and carter and evelyn, and angela, and shit. and eddy, of course. to make the days go. but, in any case, that sort of hurt.
3.) i'd like to have friends.
that's all.
1.) i don't want to go to the academy anymore. i do not wish to be a "freshmen" again, learning all the moves, and what the pecking order is, and where i can stand happily and not have my toes trod upon. i don't want to have to learn which lunch table (or in this case, breakfast, lunch, and dinner table) that i can sit at. i've already done it once, and i really don't want to do it again. i mean, i'm going to be a junior. an upperclassmen, but where i'm going, i'm the lowest rank there is. how much does that suck? lots, of course.
2.) the person i think i talk to the most on this earth, eddy, has even pointed something distressing out to me. i talk to eddy online, only. you may call him an "online friend", but it's only the miles that matter, since we'd have a smashin' good time if he lived around here. but, anyways, i was moaning about the same things i moaned about in item one, and said "it's all a waste of my youth" and he quipped "and aol isn't?" in reference to how much time i sit around and just talk to people on here because i really have nowhere to go during the summer, when school's out. since some of you went to luhi, i do hope you understand. i didn't make friends at luhi, and i'm shy. and there's nowhere to really make friends in indiana, at my age, other than the mall, and, i'm shy. so, i talk to the people i DO know, when i'm online, like austin and carter and evelyn, and angela, and shit. and eddy, of course. to make the days go. but, in any case, that sort of hurt.
3.) i'd like to have friends.
that's all.