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Okay, I know I've been MIA for like the longest!! I really been soo busy I haven't had time to really sit down and write. A lot has been happening, so much I dont even know where to start. I haven't been writing poetry or nothin! I know right? Its been bad. No Stella time. I miss that. A few weeks ago it was Mother's Day Weekend. My mom and aunt came down. It was nice. They got to meet my friends and see what life was like for me (minus the partying) and we got to do a lot of different things. They both bought shirts (since my auntie practically raised me too when my mom was gone I would go to my aunts house. So anyways that was nice.
And so lately I've been trying to transfer schools. Its almost the end of my freshman year and I've been really struggling. For some reason I thought I'd be able to get through school with a breeze. Well i really screwed myself for the first 2 terms! What the hell was I thinking? Well I finally realized what I was doing, and now I see that I needa get my ass together. My grades can't be low anymore. So I've been doing pretty well, trying to shape up. Oh so I'm trying to transfer to UO. I know its bad especially since I go to OSU! LOL...but I really want to go there for my major, not for any other reason. Hopefully my friend Dominique will come with me. She wants to go too.
Today, my friend Angela and I got in a lil dispute. We've always been cool, but there is a cliq of the 4 of us. And Angela and I are the farthest away from being real comfortable with eachother. In my opinion it's because she doesn't open up to me very well so I have a problem opening up to her about things. Its hard to talk to her sometimes. Well I guess last night I said something that made her mad and she told me about it. When someone offends her, she'll tell you off. I had no idea I was offending her, and she got really defensive. I didn't know what I was even doing. Well she thought we should talk about it. So when I called her back, she just told me all these things she didn't like about what I was doing or how i talked to her. I dont know maybe I'm complaining about nothin, but I just didn't like how she came at me like that. I don't like it when people tell me how I am or what I'm doing wrong. I guess this had nothin to do with anything, I just was real bothered by it earlier.
In love life? Well I still don't have one really. I like Jonathan still. I really wish he would just be down for me like I was down for him. I just feel like I would do a lot for him, I feel like I like him so much more than he likes me. There were times where he was off hanging out with girls til late at night, doin other things I just didn't like. But it was never w/ me. He even slept in the bed w/ one. He claimed it was innocent, but not to me. Especially if we're supposed to be "together" I didn't like that. We're talking, but....we never had a title. But still. That wasn't cool. We're definatly working on things though. But then what trips me out is that he then got mad at my new friend Rashad. And then all the times he was talking to other girls wasn't the same as when me and Rashad talked. He got jealous I guess. Lets just say we been through ours...we're working on it. Hopefully it'll go somewhere, if not...well I guess it wasn't meant to be.
Well sorry this is boring. I just haven't updated in a while. I wanted to write down alittle bit so hopefully I will be able to read this and remember some things I did. Hopefully I'll be in here more often!!! I miss writing about my life...I need my - "Stella Time" back....