new beginnings
I leave for Louisiana in 10 days from today. I can't wait. It's seriously time for school to start again! I'm still working in the same building as my mom. It's boring as hell. I label tubes. Its okay though. I guess I'm getting paid for 6 hrs to label tubes. It could be worse.
2 days ago my mom had a really bad reaction to a wasp sting. She had a really bad reaction. To think that anything would ever happen to my mom freaks me out. I would never want to think of life without her. She now has an Epi pen just in case but she is very scared of going outside now because of reaction she had. She will get tested officially on Oct 10th.
Side note: One of the girls from my high school went hiking in Chile (while she is there for the summer--even though its winter over there) and one of the other girls that she went with died. She fell off a cliff!!! RIP to this girl. She was from Seattle. It scares me to think how easily your life could end.
It seems like these boys don't ever stop with their drama. I hung out with my friend Petros again. Problem #1: He kissed me. It was a little awkward but...I dunno. Whatever I guess. It seemed almost pointless. Neither of us want a relationship with each other. Really, he wants to do more than "just kiss" but that definatly won't be happening!! Problem #2: I think Twan thinks we're together. He keeps hanging up in my face if I don't say the right thing and he is incredibly controlling. He talks about how if we were to ever really be together that "we" will be changing my number and I will only be going where he goes. Um...sorry sweetheart. I'm grown. And who are u? My father? Cuz the only father I have is INCREDIBLE!!! And his name is GOD! Ya digg? Also, he isn't the God-fearing man I want him to be. He agrees with the things I have to say about the Lord, but he never says them himself. That worries me. He is not the man for me. I'm almost sure of it. But he has this edge that keeps my attention. In the long term though, he is not someone I see myself spending the rest of my life with. Although I'm young, it is something every girl thinks about. Problem #3: I met this guy name Quin at the river when my friend Tiare came to visit a few weekends ago. I like him. He likes me. But I don't know him that well so I don't know what kind of player abilities has. He has an amazing smile and a big heart. He is a God-fearing man and he can always joke and laugh with me. Not to mention he knows everything about me. When we first really hung out, he made up this game with a quarter. Heads was his question, tails was mine. We went back and forth with the flip of a quarter asking each other questions about who we are and what we like. It was creative. He makes me smile and honestly, if I was to stick around in Pullman or even possibly in Oregon, I would concider being wit him. But right now, I'm making too many moves to really be able to settle down with someone. Problem #4: I still think about Blair daily. Why? Shoot I don't even know. We aren't together (location wise) and we do not talk often at all. Its such a werid feeling (why I think about him) that I have banned myself from AIM so I wont be tempted to hit him up. Why the hell can't I just move on from that situation? He does not feel for me like I feel for him. I want to move on soo bad. And to make things worse, he is playing in the NFL now, and pre-season games have started. He played in his first game on the 9th (below are pics from camp he showed me online. Pics taken by Kirsten Gallon).
Aside from all that, things have been great. Its kinda refreshing to know the only problems in my life have to do with guys because things could be a lot worse. Plus, a "guy situation" is easy to get rid of! I chose to sit around and think about what I should do about things.
The biggest thing I am looking foward to is a new start. I need to move on with life and start a new chapter. LSU will be a good change...or so I pray. I thought about even pledging a sorority. We will see. Today I signed up my friend and I to do some community service work in Baton Rouge, fixing up some elementry schools and stuff. I love doing this kinda thing so I hope we actually go through with it (even though we registered, my friend Domi changes her mind about everything last second. I don't care though--I'll still go.) So the first few days we are there, we're going to go do that. Then hopefully that night we'll get to go out and party or somethin. I can't wait for this change. Anyway I think that's all for now. Below are some pics of when my friend Tiare came to visit. Until the next, stay blessed!
