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i haven't wrote in this since north carolina. that is so long ago. so much has changed. pretty much my life is the same stressful bullshit. i lost the biggest piece of stress but yet, i didnt. hes still lingering around my life haunting me and pulling pieces of my heart away like he always has. i met a wonderful person that lives so many miles away from me. i spend alot my time now with my sophia lina who is officaly back in my life. sophias officaly my only real friend. the funny thing is today i found i have a nother friend i can trust i wont say his name but it is a boy. i never realized how much he cared about my life and the things that happend to me. i've learned to not trust anyone except her. this city sucks and it always will so theres nothing i can do. i cant wait to move and get out. we spend our weekends at the lake getting smashed with our new friends from oh-state. its awesome. my family is slowly getting better. im not gonna play basketball because it sucks and i dont want to waste my time. people suck at life. seceretly im loving my other life that people dont really know about. this may sound gay but i really do have like a 'secret' life. ill leave and not tell anyone where im going. its amazing. i miss my grandpa so much. this is such a pointless entry. Im really praying i can just get out of here, soon.