I wanted to stay, I wanted to play, I wanted to love you...
So I think it definitely freaks people out when I wave to them or acknowledge them in the halls as I pass them. If I am vaguely familiar with you, I'll wave to you. Possibly to move our acquaintance level to the friendship level, or just to be nice. It would be great if you didn't give me a weird look or act like a limp noodle. Then I think I am making it weird for you and then ultimately I will think low of myself.
Ugh, life. I hate to be all emo and all "oh life sucks" but truly, it most certainly does. Some things just don't feel right and the ambiguous relationship I have with certain people just adds to the suckiness. It's like one minute "You are the greatest!" and the next it's like "Get the fuck away!" What is that? There is mostly just one person I have that kind of relationship, name undisclosed. But I wonder, sometimes, if the way I see that person and the way I feel is the way people feel about me. Because I can totally see that. Maybe I am just too insecure in all aspects of my life. That's why I am so...introspective all the time?
Ugh, life. I hate to be all emo and all "oh life sucks" but truly, it most certainly does. Some things just don't feel right and the ambiguous relationship I have with certain people just adds to the suckiness. It's like one minute "You are the greatest!" and the next it's like "Get the fuck away!" What is that? There is mostly just one person I have that kind of relationship, name undisclosed. But I wonder, sometimes, if the way I see that person and the way I feel is the way people feel about me. Because I can totally see that. Maybe I am just too insecure in all aspects of my life. That's why I am so...introspective all the time?