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It's strange to keep to myself so much, but I think it is doing me good. I guess I kind of talk about my feelings on here, but I don't really discuss them with anybody in the real world. I've got so much to think about and saying it aloud seems to cheapen that. I'm glad I have work and school to keep my mind occupied.

I'm grateful I have this opportunity to better myself.

I'm grateful for my friends at work who helped me stay strong with the drinking thing today. Who knew I'd ever find such great friends at a lousy pizza place?

I'm grateful I got to do shots of soda with Brittany today out of the little portion cups, the best way to take my mind off giving into my weakness.

I'm grateful for everything Fran has been saying lately. I find myself rereading all her compliments and they are so purely genuine.

I'm grateful I have people offering to take me to church with them.

I'm grateful that I have developed the self-respect to say no to people.

I'm grateful for all the people who have stepped up and believed in me.

I'm grateful that I at least have an distant chance at getting back everything good I once had.

And I'm so grateful that even though I don't care who criticizes me anymore, I still have the strength to do the right thing.