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"You are the embodiment of the information you choose to accept and act upon. To change your circumstances you need to change your thinking and subsequent actions."
I know I've been posting in here so much lately, but I feel like a solitary figure, and writing helps me figure everything out.
I'm not going to front, throughout my life I've made some horrible decisions and hurt some of the people I loved the most. Somehow, they always ended up still loving me back, but I'm not sure if I'll ever be that lucky again. So I've got to improve myself so I don't hurt anybody in the first place.
I would love to go to church with Fran. Or at least go to a church at all. But I would want to be open from the beginning that I'm not going there to find God or accept Jesus. I would be going there to find some moral guidance and direction in becoming a better person.
I start working five days a week after today. I'm not that excited, but I really need money. I had such a fucked up few weeks. All my money went to alcohol and cigarettes. I worked hard for my money, and where did it get me? Nowhere. Hopefully I can start paying my mom back because I owe her over two hundred dollars, and hopefully I can find something worthwhile to spend the rest of my money on, like books.
I don't even want people to be proud of me, I just want to be proud of myself, and content, and confident that I'm doing the right thing. I've finally started to stand up for myself and someone told me they had respect for me for "coming in there like a woman." That meant a lot. I just want to be upfront from now on, but I'm not going to take anyone's meaningless bullshit again. I don't have time for that.
I know I've been posting in here so much lately, but I feel like a solitary figure, and writing helps me figure everything out.
I'm not going to front, throughout my life I've made some horrible decisions and hurt some of the people I loved the most. Somehow, they always ended up still loving me back, but I'm not sure if I'll ever be that lucky again. So I've got to improve myself so I don't hurt anybody in the first place.
I would love to go to church with Fran. Or at least go to a church at all. But I would want to be open from the beginning that I'm not going there to find God or accept Jesus. I would be going there to find some moral guidance and direction in becoming a better person.
I start working five days a week after today. I'm not that excited, but I really need money. I had such a fucked up few weeks. All my money went to alcohol and cigarettes. I worked hard for my money, and where did it get me? Nowhere. Hopefully I can start paying my mom back because I owe her over two hundred dollars, and hopefully I can find something worthwhile to spend the rest of my money on, like books.
I don't even want people to be proud of me, I just want to be proud of myself, and content, and confident that I'm doing the right thing. I've finally started to stand up for myself and someone told me they had respect for me for "coming in there like a woman." That meant a lot. I just want to be upfront from now on, but I'm not going to take anyone's meaningless bullshit again. I don't have time for that.