how can you take all these things, and throw them away?
:( too bad.. my life sucks..
my parents like to play lil games with our heads..
saying that they are going to split up. then not.
i really don't care if they do anymore..
i just wish that they would do it if they say they are..
i hate when people tell me that they are goign to do
something.. and don't do it..
last nite.. fun. i was kinda stuck at home everyday
until yesterday but it sure made up for it..
i got some new clothes.. hella awesome belt. i love my belt!
and yea.. lol jay r just held my purse and bags while
i tried things on.. heehee...
too bad i learned that i'm different than a lot of people..
but i like that.. :)
ate hella food yesterday.. i love to eat too... lol
met new people.. hung out with old friends.. had fun!:D
everywhere i go tho..he's still in my mind...
i can't get him out.. i don't want to forget him..
i just want to try to move on..
even while trying to talk to other guys..
its still hard.. i mention him ALOT.. and that can't be good...
i go to sleep thinking of him..and wake up thinking of him...
i guess thats what love does to you...
i never want to love again..
its too painful of an emotion...
even tho it should be one of the greatest..
its the one i least desire....
mayb i still want to be with him....
i don't know..
i know it will never happen...unless he wanted it too..
i think my life is too fucked up and stressful right now tho..
i miss him a lot.. our phone calls, our texts, our im's, everything..
from him calling me pookie, me calling him boob...
to our lil arguements that we'd have..
everything..
i miss it...all.. < /3
one and three, you're here
(one and three, you're here
to tell me we can't do this)
to tell me we can't do this
(three for three, i'll disagree)
anymore
your hair and face against the mirror
as i take the steps to save what's left of me
someone's out when it's over
people steal from you
and they take anything they choose
it's good to see you
i missed you last night
that's such a lovely color
it goes with your eyes
but we fall asleep
i just wanted to say
this all seems so easy
but there's choices to make
can't decide, then look at the faces
candlelight
we're burning the pages
but ask us why
and hurting ourselves with this false start
resign yourself
and always be (and we pretend)
without the one (it simply gets easier)
thing you need (but it doesn't get easier)
reading words with no replies
when we have these mornings where we can say goodbye
i wanted to mean everything to you
but this isn't right
you keep coming back disassembled and i
keep losing this fight
i won't
answer
dancing on this all i go
no one in the city knows
confidence can take you
nerves try to shake you
from going all the way
it's not that far
it's good to see you
i missed you last night
that's such a lovely color
it goes with your eyes
before we fall asleep
just wanted to say
this all seems so easy
there's choices to make
we watch the tide roll in
with cold air and coffeecake
holding our words at list
stopping the sounds they make
we know the way to go
we know each step to take
to be here
these words with no replies
stopping we's and starting i's
this need is killing me
and taking me over
i wanted to mean everything to you
but this isn't right
you keep coming back disassembled
and i keep losing this fight